Its Mine to Tell (:

Challenge Day 06

2011-12-09T02:19:00.000+11:00

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

Joelynn Citro ♥

Our church’s ISM pastor’s daughter. I love to play w her and carry her around every time I see her. She’s super duper uber adorable. Nawwwww! She’s growing up really fast now :( I wish she could stay like that forever. Hehehe. So that I can still carry her around and baby talk to her ♥

I would wanna be her for a day. Why?
Being a toddler, she is naïve and innocent at that age – don’t have to stress about things. Don’t have to hold so much responsibility and just be taken care off even just for one day :) When I’m happy and smile, people smile together and feel happy too; When I’m upset, people will try their best to cheer me up – pick-a-boo or tickle me. Kids are really a bundle of joy. I wanna bring happiness to people and at the same time, people bring happiness to me. Even just for one day. Hehe :P

PS : I love kids. That special someone should be like that too ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Challenge Day 05

2011-12-08T02:20:00.000+11:00

Haha! It has been a LOOOOOONNG time since I continued this 50-day challenge :) Trying to continue now since I don’t really have much to do since I’m home. lololol :D

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.

I cannot deny that it is memorable.

I remember all the good times :)
Why remember the bad times when we had more good times?
The times when I felt like the whole world freezes because im happy in love. The times where I made cards to celebrate our monthsaries. The times we hang out everyday after school for lunch and just share how our day in school was and what not. The times we spent every weekend just relaxing in the comforts of my house.

I remember.

All the bits and pieces of this memory made me who I am today and I am thankful for it.

该放下的就必须要彻底地放下
It definitely took quite some time and effort to put it behind me. Now, when it crosses my mind, I smile :) It will always remain a memory – a part of me.

PS : 已经是过去做人应该往前看为更好的未来努力

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Summer Holidays#4

2011-12-07T03:50:00.000+11:00

I am back! :) :) :)

This post is super delayed man! Haha! I flew back w the sister on the 4th. Flo drove us to the airport. Bless her kind heart ♥ Ups and downs between the sister and I as we pass through immigration and customs. Argued in public some more. Lolol! But it was all okay after some time, I guess. There in the passengers lounge, we met up w Hesmond. We were on the same flight some more! :D

The whole flight, I couldn’t sleep well. I really don’t like AirAsia :( But what to do? It aint my money. My parents are the one paying. Next time when I am earning my own money, I don’t wanna fly w AirAsia! ROAR =x Wanna try SQ. Hehehe.

Finally arrived LCCT, KL and when I stepped out of the plane, I felt it was so humid that I had to gasp for air. No im not exaggerating. Lololol! It’s been almost a year since I came back. Wonder how people can stand it when they havent been back for 6yrs. Hmmm =\

The family came and pick us up :) Reunion!

Guess what, we ate durian on the first day itself! Hahahaa! :D :D We had cendol and rojak too. Yummmmm! Cravings…

So far I have been staying home. Wanna get used to the weather and humidity before I go out and lepakk all the time. Lolol! Tried driving around too. It has been a while since I have been behind the wheel. Shook abit and I guess slowly, I’ll get used to driving again :)

I bought some baking ingredients today! Cant wait to get back in the groove of making yummy food. Hohoho >:D I’ll have friends over to try em and sleep over too. Wheee! This Friday this Friday ♥

PS : 要真正的爱

Summer Holidays#3

2011-11-25T15:27:00.001+11:00

Fireproof.
A very moving movie. Though I could not relate to the movie at the moment because I’m not married, but its definitely something I should keep in mind for the future :) Definitely lots of tears in the end. I reckon movies which can make me cry are good. Haha!

After watching this movie just now, Hannah asked me to watch Courageous. She watched it yesterday in the cinema w/out me. GREAT! Now I have to find people to watch it with. Hmmm :| Don’t really fancy watching alone. So I guess I will have to find people asap.

Ohhh on a random note, was supposed to go to Vic Mart this morning with Lance but I woke up with a swollen, sore eye. Geeee! Cant leave the house with that eye. So we postponed it to next week instead. Lol :D And I reckon I’m gonna head out to buy the ingredients later. Teehee! Im excited im excited ♥

PS : do you think I should ask you? hmm…

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Summer Holidays#2

2011-11-24T23:55:00.001+11:00

EeeOoo♥

Just got home from dinner w them, my EeeOoo family. And we spent 3hours there – eating, chatting, sharing and lots of laughter. Debriefing of Thanksgiving Party. According to everyone, the event was a success and only two negative feedbacks which included the promotion video and the inconsistent decoration of the hall and the auditorium. Well, I really was disappointed with how the promotion video turned out when it was played in all church services for 2 weeks! Geee, we put heaps of effort in it but it was screwed up by the AV team :( Now, we have decided that we wont be making anymore promo videos because it was messed up this time. Next time its just gonna be one PowerPoint slide which is gonna pretty much sum up what the event is about etc. Roar! As for the decorations, they said it was inconsistent where the feeling wasn’t there as people entered Chapel Hall and the auditorium. Hmmm :| I guess its because we were too focused on only certain parts and there were many of us who werent able to help out like Cous and myself coz we still had exams. Ohhh wells :) Its not discouraging, instead it motivates us to do better next time. Cant wait for next year xD

We are definitely shrinking in number now. Many members cannot commit anymore and just drop out. Others are graduating and are going back to their home country. Our leader is expecting to step down next year. Its really sad just now as we were in reflective mood. I teared up slightly. I guess I looked back and saw how much fun we had, how much sweat and effort we put into all events to date, how many ups and downs we’ve had for the past year. Thinking back, I really cherish those moments we have as a family. I like how we spend every week together, keep each other in prayers and just support each other.

Next year, I’m foreseeing myself to step up the game. Be more responsible. Find a part time job, manage my study time better now that I have my study group – Namloonies ♥, be more useful in EeeOoo and really give all my best to serve in every way possible :) This would be my next 2012’s resolution. Teehee!

Ohhh EeeOoo, I love you guys! Really. I am grateful and thankful that I decided to join you guys after reading about you guys in JournalISM and ever since then, you guys have been nothing but a blessing to me. He really works in MARVELOUS ways ♥

Will miss you guys these 2 months and cant wait to return in February :) Fresh start! ♥

PS : all the best tomorrow! we know you can do it :)

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Summer Holidays #1

2011-11-24T03:21:00.001+11:00

This is gonna be the first of my Summer Holiday posts :D Why? Because I just started my holidays, dumb dumb :) lawl. It officially started yesterday when I stepped out of Rod Laver Arena (my exam hall)

Freedom.

Ohhh and fingers crossed, I would always update my blog. Have been really slacking on my updates aye? Teehee (: But ohh it feels super AWESOME to have 3 months break. Break from studying.

Going to fly back home next Sunday. Still have heaps of time to pack coz I’m not gonna bring much stuff home anyway. Only a few pieces of clothings, foot wear, and that’s pretty much it? SHOPPING!!!!! Great! :D Wanna change my wardrobe for 2012. Looking forward to all the nice dresses, more leggings, more shorts. More feminine wear :) Yes, because I am turning 20 and I don’t wanna be boyish already. Its about time to be a lady yea?

Okay, im just gonna give a brief update about what has been happening during my exam period.
I reckon Saturday was a bad day :( From the time I left my house at 730am. Geeee! LOOOOONNNNGGGG story. I shall not talk so much about it coz I don’t wanna feel miserable again. But yes, it was definitely a BAD day. Aiiih! I guess the only highlight for that day was Thanksgiving Party. I looked forward to it after I finished both my papers that day.

ISM Thanksgiving Party would be the highlight of ISM I reckon :) Coz every cell would come and gather in church – this time, DRESS UP according to the theme allocated. This year’s theme is Animal Kingdom. Each cell had to dress up differently. My cell got Insects – hence metamorphosis of a butterfly; another cell had Birds, hence, Angry Birds; another cell got circus animals, another cell got Prehistoric Animals – dinosaurs and what not :P ♥

It was really nice to see what people wore that night. They got really creative with the costumes :) Teehee! Plus, its an event organized by EeeOoo. We have been planning this a month ago. And we’re glad it turned out great. At the end of the day, why were we gathered there? To give thanks to what He has done for us throughout the year, whether individually, a ministry, a cell or a group ♥

Was so tired on Saturday that I couldn’t get up on Sunday for church. I went for 6pm service instead. LOLOLOL! And then studied again until I finished exams yesterday. The stressed out days are gone…. for now at least! :P I was so tired from studying yesterday that after my Contract Law paper, I really wanted to jump w joy but just couldn’t. Too exhausted, I went home and drop dead on the couch -____-

Thankgoodness, I am all energized today :) Watched Breaking Dawn with Hannah in Crowns this arvo. Gold Class some more. How cool was that?! What a great way to start off my holidays :D :D :D ♥

Village Gold Class cinema at Crowns :)

Totally loved the fact that I could adjust my seat. Put my feet up and have my personal attendant where I could order drinks and meals and what not :D Awesome! Hannah and I enjoyed it. Hannah even suggested that we should do it more often next time. Lol! Provided I get a job. Tickets are $25 per person. Quite pricy but totally worth it today ♥

Team Jacob all the way

Im not blogging about the movie as a courtesy to those who have yet to watch it :) Teehee! It was surreal, I assure you. Enjoyed it very much. I reckon im going to watch it a second time w Hilda back home.

Im starting to get used to us not chatting as much :( Well, I reckon it might be a good thing coz I wont miss you that much when im home? Hmmm… Ohh wells, if its meant to be, its meant to be; If its not, then its not :) Cant wait to see the expression on your face this weekend! ♥

PS : dear you, study well. It will be over soon! ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

One down!

2011-11-17T15:54:00.001+11:00

Microeconomics is down! 3 more to go. Whee whee. Liberation will be here in no time :) Cant wait to settle a few things after my liberation and before I fly home. Really looking forward. It’s the thought of accomplishing it which makes me smile whenever I’m frustrated w all these studying. It’s really something I wanna do. I reckon I dream about it at night too. Nawwwww! *fingers crossed*

Slept at 1030 last night. Kept waking up every 2 hours and its like im wide awake. Roar! Finally got outta bed at 330am to study for my paper. Really hope it paid off. Everything I studied came out :) Coolies! Gonna nap for awhile before studying for my Company Law paper and my IBIS paper on Saturday.
Cant wait till exams are over. Next week next week. AWESOME! :D Persevere persevere, I can do it!

PS : Don’t emo la =(( Aiiih. Cheer up k? Keeping you in my prayers. There’s only so much I can do.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#155

2011-11-15T17:53:00.001+11:00

Never expected myself to complain about studying. Seriously, never viewed it as a chore. Now… All because of IBIS =x Seriously, feel like hanging myself. I am okay with Microeconomics now. Slowly developing this good feeling about this subject, now I have to face another nightmare! Introduction to Business Information Systems.

Going through Lectopia is like a death sentence to me. Reminded me of the many times I didn’t attend those stupid lectures. His voice bores me. I seriously felt like sleeping while going through Lectopia. ROAR! =x How how how? Other than reading all the notes, and going through a practice run with the past year exams, I don’t know how else am I gonna get through to this subject. It is so so annoying! Its so technical. No story at all. Its like a repetition of words. All I can see is IT IT IT!!! Business processes business processes business processes. GAHHHHHH! Epic. I am thankful that I am not solely taking business. I will hang myself going through all the organizational structure and processes. To me, business is trading. As simple as that. Good heavens! Now all this theory comes into place and it complicates the whole business concept I have in mind. NOOOOOO! I am not going to do business. I’m glad I have law subjects which makes my life more colorful.

With law, I don’t see the hassle to study and to LOVE the subject. Gahhh! I need more than just luck for this IBIS paper, I tell you. I really have to push push push, I seriously don’t wanna fail this paper :( The thought of having to repeat this subject makes me gag. Don’t wanna see the lecturer’s face nor the tutor’s face. NOOOOOOO!

Hoping for the best right now. Taking breaks in between. Trying so hard not to break down.

PS : In the midst of frustration w all these studying, somehow, having you at the back of my mind, keeps me calm. Telling myself to persevere. Soon, it’ll be over :) hopefully we can pick up from where we left off *fingers crossed*

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#154

2011-11-13T02:00:00.001+11:00

Intimidated?
Guess what buddy? I doubt im gonna sit and wait around for you to treat me like a doormat. Like to chat then chat, don’t feel like it then stop it altogether? Leave me wondering what’s up and doubt myself? Ohemgee! I’m sick and tired waiting around for you. No! Cant do this anymore. I’m gonna live my life. Not wait around for someone who’s hot and cold.

I have been procrastinating heaps this week, waiting around for someone who doesn’t give a crap about showing. Since I have made up my mind now, I am gonna study study study yo! After church tomorrow till Wednesday. No, im not gonna sign into MSN. Not until I finish my exams. I’m not gonna care or bother asking whether you’re coming. If you come, you come; you don’t, its alright too. And about your birthday surprise, im done and over. Not following through w what I have in mind. Doubt it’d be worth it. So, just a simple facebook wish would do -_____-

My world does not evolve around you. Don’t mess me up coz its gonna be nasty! Goodbye to you.

To achieve my dreams, I am gonna rise to the occasion. Kthnxbai.

PS : I will be alright! Study and go home :D

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

11.11.11 ♥

2011-11-12T02:24:00.001+11:00

Embrace this awesome date yo! People say it only happens every 1000 years. LOL :D Alright alright! So how did you guys spend this day? :) Thankgoodness it’s a Friday, or else, it’d be another normal day. HAHAHA!

How I spent this day…

Studied in the arvo and went out in the evening w my grandparents and my aunt. We went to the Burlesque Ball. It was a last minute thing coz my aunt’s friend couldn’t make it, so my aunt asked me to take her place. The tickets are not cheap yo! So why let them go to waste? Couldn’t bring Hannah coz there’s only one ticket. Plus, we thought that Hannah would work on Friday nights. Didn’t know she called it off tonight. We didn’t mean it. So if you’re holding back any hard feelings, we’re sorry. I, on the other hand, needed some break from my studies.

For you people wondering what Burlesque is…

It was an elegant strip tease :) Haha! I watched the movie Burlesque by Christina Aguilera and Cher, so I figured : why not go and see the real life Burlesque as well. Twas a great opportunity ♥

After the show, we head to Namloong for supper. My favourite place to eat 流沙包 :) :) :)

This pretty much sums up my day :) Teehee!
Back to studying now. Tomorrow wake up and study some more. Cell group. Dinner. EeeOoo Thanksgiving prep! :) 加油 ♥

I wish my happy ending would be with you. And if its not, I have to let go and wait for my happy ending w someone else :) It wouldn’t be easy but I overcome previous ones, therefore, I shall hold my head up high and trust that He will bring my happy ending to me in His timing ♥

PS : repeating huimin’s status – why do grown men play dota?? pffft! =x

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#153

2011-11-10T03:38:00.001+11:00

*yawwwwnnn*
Just got up from a nap. Yes, I napped at 10pm. LOL Probably because of the heavy dinner I had and the ever-so-encouraging weather. It was raining. The sound of raindrops makes me sleep.

Anyhhooooo! I spent the arvo studying (slightly) Grrrr! Hate how im not productive anymore. I tend to be more productive when im studying w friends and w/out my laptop. Hmmm :| Had my grandparents and relatives come over in the evening to see my place. Cleaned up the house slightly before they came and when they did, entertained them :) Played piano for my grandmother who kept wanting to sing hymns. Well, I don’t have a hymnal here in the house. All back home in Kuantan x) We left my house separately because apparently my relatives’ rented car doesn’t have enough space for all of us. So Hannah and I brought my distant cousin – Kevin on the tram w us to my aunt’s.

Kevin and I ♥
OMG! I know right? He is only 14 and he is super tall. Like two heads taller than me. ROAR! Cant wait to go home and stand beside my brother, bet he is about this tall or taller as well. Eeeeeks =x Reckon all the boys in my family are tall as! x) Well, no point complaining. I just have to make do. Their job is to protect their eldest cousin sister who appears to be the shortest among all others. LOLOLOL!

Ohhh after that, we got a chance to see the dark clouds setting in. Heading towards the city. See the pictures! Scary as.

This was taken at the tram stop, waiting for uncle CK to come fetch us. Hmmmm…

All these pictures are taken from the balcony at my aunt’s place. Her area is near the Melbourne Tullamarine International Airport. Pretty far from the city. But as you can see… The dark clouds were heading towards the city. And boy, did the clouds move fast!!!! Slowly swallowing the city. Ohh, and we saw a few planes having a tough time trying to land coz of the dark clouds. They looked like paper planes in the sky. Coz they seemed so fragile as they swayed here and there. Bet it was super scary for the passengers in the plane. Sure enough, they had turbulence and the pilot found it difficult to control the plane as the wind was super strong. Eeeeks =x Super scary. This is the weather forecast! PS : Don’t be fooled by the temperature of 20’s! It was oven-like. HOT AS!

We were all fooled by the fact that it was a super sunny and hot day throughout until evening came. Thunder, lightning and strong wind. Thankgoodness we were all sheltered :) We went to Footscray for an AWESOME dinner ♥ Yummmm! The food was good and it was on my grandfather. Teehee! Thankiuuuu 爷爷 ♥

Mama and her two elder grand daughters w her sister’s grandson, Kevin :) ♥

Relatives are flying back to Singapore tomorrow arvo. Hopefully it wouldn’t be storming tomorrow as well. Have a safe flight guys! ♥ Thanks for everything :) See you guys when we go back.

Alright alright.. Lets see what weather is installed for us tomorrow.

HOT HOT HOT HOT!

Alright, after a long nap just now, its back to Microeconomics now. My friend named Mocha will accompany me until I think I have enough :) Nights people!

PS : Huggiebear :] 又想你了，好好睡吧 ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#152

2011-11-09T03:57:00.001+11:00

I’m glad that we talked things through :) :)

Thankiuuu, Huggiebear ♥

Thankiuuu Lord ♥ Certainly without Your given wisdom and strength, I wouldn’t have the courage to let it all out. Now, we’ve talked things through. And I just wanna thank You :)

PS : I will be productive tmrw!

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#151

2011-11-08T02:55:00.001+11:00

Monday has gone and pass. Ohhemgeee! What did I do? Seriously, I didn’t do much. Wasn’t a productive day whatsoever. I slept for a whopping 14hours. So much of a beauty sleep eh? I guess its because on Saturday night, I didn’t sleep well. I slept less than 3 hours. Its not because I didn’t wanna sleep. But I kept waking up in the middle of the night and found it hard to go back to sleep again. Grrrr =x Don’t know whats up. I was probably anxious about singing on Sunday morning perhaps? Not sure why though. I mean, this aint my first time singing also.

Sunday was really draining! I overlooked the roster and didn’t see the part where we’re rostered to sing/play for 6pm service as well. LOL! And guess what, I was the only one in the entire team who didn’t know *slaps self* Guess it was the lack of sleep the night before? Geee! I really don’t know.

Why do I feel my world is upside down when im being cut off from you? I’m like super disorganized, super blur and like super lost… Why did I allow you to be this significant in my life? Grr! I would really love to not care about you. But I cant help it D: Whenever I see you, I feel the urge to cry. I feel super upset inside. I guess its because I feel its as if you left w/out me knowing. You totally left me hanging. The connection between you and I… was so short yet you left such a big impact on me. I reckon all I wanna ask of you is to remember me.

You mean more to me than you’ll ever know :’)

Hannah keeps pushing me and asking me to just tell you how I feel about you. But I guess im still very much the traditional type of girl where I believe in the guy chasing the girl instead of the girl doing the chasing. Yes, I admire from afar. It takes a lot of effort and a long time but its like the only way I know. Remember you asked me this question before. “You’re the traditional type huh?” YES!!! And you’re the traditional kinda guy too, remember? You said you would be sorta taken aback if a girl comes for you. With that said, rest assured, I will leave these words unsaid :) Don’t you worry.

So near yet so far…

Dreams.
I have weird dreams recently and it always wakes me up in the middle of the night, wondering… WHAT WAS THAT? and I would be bothered by it. Hence, I’ll find it difficult to get back to sleep again. I really really have to pray hard. Ask Him to reveal what those dreams mean and ask Him for proper rest.

Matthew 11:28 - "Come to me, all who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest"

Ohhh on a random note, my grandparents are in the plane now as we speak, on the way HERE! Wheee :D Cant wait to spend time w them. But at the same time, I have to reschedule my studying time as well. Hmmmm :| No complaints ♥

PS : 若要把你放下，我需要勇气 :(

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Feeling under the weather?

2011-11-05T01:18:00.001+11:00

It’s a sunny day out now in the arvo! Like finally. Geeee. It didn’t feel like it was spring these 2 weeks coz it has been raining and it was quite chilly. Hmmm :| Ohh wells.

Still, I reckon im feeling slightly under the weather. Due to many factors actually. One of being the fact that we havent been chatting heaps, but its alright now that we still have that slight communication. Another fact would be because I have been getting warnings/advises from brothers/sisters in Christ. I just turned on Facebook and there’s this brother who left me a message in my inbox saying how I should stop posting/sharing sexual stuff on my wall?! First of all, I didn’t have any intention of attracting unnecessary attention from the opposite sex or what not. The most recent one I posted was a newspaper article about this high school student in Taiwan who was sexually assaulted by his girlfriend’s father. I found it epic, that’s all. Thought of sharing. No bad intentions at all. Geeee! Deep inside, I know that its always good to have people being accountable for my growth and what not. But sometimes I feel it’s a bit too much. Somehow, after reading that inbox message, I had this really heavy feeling. Its like I could understand how non-believers feel when we Christians come out too strong on this and that. Yes, we’re supposed to be set apart. But I know deep inside, I didn’t have that intention to draw attention to myself =x
I mean, he even asked me to take those posts out and stop posting stuff like that again. I felt very restricted. Felt very controlled. Like someone is here to take over the wheel of my life when the person who is supposed to take the wheel is my Lord, my God. I feel troubled as of now.

Anyway, I just replied that brother saying, “Yeah, if it bothers you so much, I’ll take those post out”

I know it’d sound as if im pissed by replying it like that, but I couldn’t hide it. Hmmmm… Im gonna pray for peace and joy then. Or else, I know my whole arvo or rather, my whole day would be ruined and it wouldn’t be a productive day.

I wish I could be carefree and not dwell on what I reckon people would think of me or is thinking of me…

PS : 就是想着你♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#150

2011-11-03T02:34:00.001+11:00

I’ve realized that I have the urge to blog now. Why? Coz I am not chatting w you :( Everytime I blog, it just means I have this extra time which means I am not in an active convo w you :( And guess what, I don’t like it! I mean I don’t mind putting my thoughts into words here. But what I don’t like is… Because I’m not sharing w you, im putting em here. I have heaps to tell you. Really really…

Yeah, we have been attached for quite some time now. With this attachment, expectations come into place and expectations always leads to disappointments =x
Bottom line : I am disappointed in you.

What happened?

Is it because exams are here, that’s why I feel you’re so distant? Even if so, tell me! Don’t leave me hanging halfway. We never used to be awkward… What happened today? All along, I thought you’re doing work then today you told us you havent even started? So what have you been up to? I don’t understand. I don’t understand :( :( :( :(

Coincidentally, we were on the same train to uni this arvo. I didn’t notice until I saw you way way way infront of me. Yes, I recognize your back. I really really wanted to catch up, I ran a little just so that I can call out to you. But you turned at the corner and once I reached that same corner, I couldnt see you anymore.
So near yet so far, so close yet so distant.

Physically, we’re so near yet so far. With our hearts, we’re so close yet so distant :/ I really don’t know what has happened.

A always asks me this question. Last two months, she asked and I was like NOOOOOO. Last month, she asked and I just smiled. Today she asked again and I go all quiet, with a light nod and thought hard…

Looking deep in your eyes today, I couldn’t help but melt. But why this? Talk to me. I wish you could express abit more. Wish you will finally be prepared and express more and as much your heart desires. Pretty please:(

All I am asking is for you to not leave me hanging. Simple.

Huggiebear ♥

PS : I really don’t want to ruin this.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#149

2011-11-02T00:16:00.001+11:00

Yumcha at Taipan, East Doncaster this arvo! ♥
With my cell ladies :) Yu Ying, Florence, Sze Ying, Agnes and Justine.

Flo picked me up after Yu Ying and we hit the road :D We assumed that it was gonna be a long drive to reach there. Apparently, there wasn’t much traffic prolly coz people are at the races? Hmm :| But all good! Reached there early but still had to wait for tables. JAM PACKED YO! =x

This Taipan place brings back childhood memories. I reckon it all backdates to my 2nd time here in Melbourne. I reckon we ate here w Uncle Wan and family or w Jiong Gong. Don’t remember exactly but yea… Fond childhood memories ♥

Today I was back there again. This time as a grown up, ordering my own dimsum w my cell members :) Teehee! Boy, time flies.

Anyhoooos! We had a great time eating and catching up. We should do this more often. But I miss eating dimsum w parents. Coz they’ll pay! Hahahaha

Chatime had buy one free one promo for at their new franchise in Melb Central. Coolies! So, we went there and get my Bubble Milk Tea and got one milk tea for free for Flo :) Head back to Yu Ying's for our bible study preparation for this Saturday. Ohhh I didn’t know I was so engrossed in preparing the study that it was already 6pm. From 3.45pm till 6pm, I was reading and writing down notes and thoughts. Lol :D It was productive. I am nervous to lead this Saturday. Hmmm :|

Yes, and I want to tell you how anxious I am for this Saturday. But you’re too busy to reply me ): Doing work? I really hope so. I have doubts in me at the moment. Please come back soon to clarify em w me. Tell me its just me. Tell me you’re here to stay. If not, it’d be kept as words left unsaid. I assure you, I can bury em deep inside and I bury em good.

Will be going to uni tomorrow for my last week of classes. Ohhh wells! :) Its gonna be my only day going this week, so might as well not complain.

Ohhh on a random note, im hooked on to this song :] ♥

PS : I really miss you, Huggiebear! :(

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Back to Uni#6

2011-11-01T04:21:00.001+11:00

Its funny how this is already week 12 and my title is only “Back to Uni#6” :O

Yes, it’s the last week of uni this year 2011! Wow, time really flies. SWOT VAC (study week) is next week and I have 2 more weeks of exams and im going home! Really?! First year of uni just flew pass like that.

Reflecting…

2nd sem is definitely way tougher, yet much more interesting and fun. Made more friends in uni. Have been very close to a few of them too :) Make more awesome circle of friends in ISM and what not! 2nd sem has been more productive I reckon. There has been more studying going on although there’s still tendency to slack. Ohhh wells, I reckon 2nd sem, I have been molded into a better person as to compare w 1st sem. Thinking wise, attitude wise etc.

I am thankful and grateful to have Him as my provider, my comforter, my molder :D ♥

Indeed, You are Lord :)
As the song goes…

I know for sure, all of my days are held in your hands, crafted
into your perfect plan.
You gently call me into your presence guiding me by Your Holy Spirit.
Set me apart, I know you're drawing me to yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

I wanna thank You for him and her. Both of them have been really a blessing to me. You led me through them. Though most of the time, its rather seen as tough love. Yet, in the end I’m blessed abundantly by You ♥ Bless these two lovely souls as well.

On a random note, I installed Google Chrome. Had no specific reason to why I installed it. Haha! Just felt like it, I guess :|

So my browser looks like this now :)

Took me heaps long to discover how to put my most visited pages into thumbnails above. Finally, epiphany! Lol.

Tomorrow is Melbourne Cup Day!
Public holiday :) :) :) :)

What’s Melbourne Cup Day you ask? It’s a day where races take place. And by saying that, its horse racing, not cars. LOL Its normally held at the Flemington Racecourse. People go there to place bets and the rest just go there to check out the atmosphere and what not. Those on the tracks are racing. Whereas, those off the tracks are also competing for “Best Dressed Male and Female”. Seems interesting, but I reckon I’d give it a pass. Since im about to have exams. Might just leave this event for a better time in the future – probably after I graduate :)

I’m gonna spend my arvo tomorrow YUMCHA-ing w my cell members. It’d be a girls day out, I reckon. Teeehee! Looking forward ♥ Then probably later in the arvo, gonna settle in for some bible study preparation as I am going to co-lead cell this week :) Study for my Access test as well.

Yearp! I have been asked by Yu Ying to co-lead the cell. It’s a good stepping stone I guess? Giving it a try and see how it goes. After all, it wouldn’t hurt to ease the burden of my cell leader. She has been doing everything. I really wanna help her :) Anyway, here’s the most recent photo of us. CARLTON HAPPY HOURS ♥♥♥♥

Hey you, I miss you :( :( :( :( We have reached the stage where we’re so comfortable w each other. Whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing, I don’t really know yet. Hmmm… I’m gonna be busy studying, and you’re gonna be busy completing your assignment & preparing for exams as well. We’re doing what we’re supposed to do. In the midst of it, I just wanna tell you, imissyou, my fatherly huggiebear!!! ♥

PS : one step closer ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#148

2011-10-20T03:43:00.001+11:00

Currently addicted to this song :P Well, I love the melody. Still, “失去你还怕失去什么?" “为你而活是我的许诺" are the parts which I dislike in the lyrics.

Yes, I agree that loving someone makes you think you’re willing to give up everything for that person - even your own life. But hey, reality check! “Losing you, what am I still afraid to lose?” THERE IS SOMEONE WHOM YOU SHOULD BE VERY VERY VERY AFRAID OF LOSING! God. Without Him, you’re really nothing -not some guy or girl who tells you they love you but still ends up breaking your heart. He loves us no matter what and will not hurt us. “To live for you is my sole purpose/promise” Wow! Really? Live your life to the fullest and glorify His name in everything you do is what you should do, instead of living your life for someone who can disappoint you in a blink of an eye.

No, my heart is not hardened because of one past relationship. It would be pathetic to affect how I view “love” just because of one guy. But I can say that I am more realistic now. I used to think that being in love / relationship, its gonna be like a fairytale – live happily ever after! And its because I had that expectation or fantasy in this childish mind of mine, I end up falling so hard that it took me almost 2 years to stand back on my two feet again.

Its just what I think. Its always easier said than done. But I continue to pray everyday that He will be the center of my next relationship. And yes, love Him first :) Discover myself in Him, grow mature in Him and be the woman that He will mold me to be. Then when the time has come for that special someone to be w me, it’d be a God-given relationship. This time, I would really wanna do things differently.

He is in control of everything.

Yes He is :) Amen!
Like what I told him, I cannot imagine anyone else being my mentor other than Yu Ying. She has been a great blessing to me – as my cell leader at first, became my friend whom I can share my thoughts with and what not. Now my mentor - a combination of both. Someone He chose to guide me ♥

We had our first discipleship session last night where I went over to her house after having dinner at the Life Worth Living Course – coz its FREE! Haha! (im so indo) Anyway, we’re studying the book of Exodus. Started Chap 1 last night and with each paragraph, Yu Ying asked me to think about what I can learn from each paragraph and then make a summary out of it, think about how I can apply it on a daily basis. Wow! At first, I was hesitant. I reckon some paragraphs don’t even have any lessons to learn from also. But later on when Yu Ying explains what she thinks, only I realize that actually, I really have to read slowly and meditate on it and He will speak to me eventually :)

Thankiuuuu my dear x ♥

With uni, I got my Company Law assignment back and basically other mid sem tests for other subjects as well. Im back to being an average student :| What happened to the girl who has a few HDs back during Sem1? My IBIS group and I also just found out that we’re gonna be presenting next week. Formal office clothes yo! Ohh goodness! Busy busy busy.

Okiedokies! This is my random post. So im just throwing my topics in randomly as well. Lol :D Toodles! x Nights! ♥

I really liked that night where we shared songs w each other. Pretty much understood each other better in terms of what genre of music we’re into :) And someone isnt feeling well atm. ROAR! Sleep late some more. So stubborn, don’t wanna listen. Hmmmm. Ohhh ohhh ohh! I thought we’re not gonna have what we have this sem anymore. Apparently, we’re gonna take one similar subject together next year. Wheeee hooooo :D Happy! ♥

PS : get well soon, my huggiebear :) pray that you will get sleeping and eating time back on the right track. starting to worry already. Roar!

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Back to Uni#5

2011-10-18T11:26:00.001+11:00

Week 9 is over and done! Whoah, week 10 is here. Soon, week 12 will come and it’ll be last week in uni in 2011. One week of study leave. Following week would be exams! =x

I still have 3 more weeks. Have to be more productive since there’s 3 more weeks left. Come on Hazel! 3 more weeks :)

In means of productivity, I have different study groups throughout the week now to prepare for finals. Mondays and Saturdays will be w Whitney – my prayer partner as well as my study partner. Tuesdays will be with Yu Ying – my cell leader and my mentor. Wednesdays will be with Angela and Lance in uni. Thursdays and Fridays will be with Alicia and the ISM people. Sundays could be my off day :) Tadaaaa! Everything falling into place.

Something interesting happened this week. I had an allergy reaction!!! First time ever in my entire existence on this earth. As far as my medical records go, I don’t have any history of allergies. Ohh wells, I reckon its best I discover now than later in my life and suffer much worse symptoms right? :) Or rather in kuche’s words, better now than the night before I walk down the aisle. LOLOLOLOL :D

It all started on Tuesday morning when I had cramps during my Company Law lecture. Went to the pharmacy to get the period pain pills after the lecture. Took em before I went for my Contract Law tute. Next thing I know, my right eye became so itchy. I thought it was just some itch from my contact lens. Later on, my eyes started to swell and puff up. Roar! I started to freak out as of that moment. Was thinking it was hay fever. Anyway, the tutor knew something was wrong and he ended the discussion very fast and left. Leaving Angela, Jason and I in the class. Both of them started calling the emergency hotlines and what not to find out where’s the nearest clinic/hospital. Apparently the guy at the other end of the line kept on asking for my personal details bla bla bla instead of going straight to whether my symptoms are serious that I have to go into emergency. Angela and Jason freaked out and got impatient with the guy and said we don’t need his help if he is gonna yap yap yap! Hahahaha :D I wasn’t freaking out until they freaked out. Inside of me, looking at these two people whom I’ve only got to know for 9 weeks to be so freaked out, I felt warm on the inside. Yea, the bad side is I got the allergy and I looked like a gold fish but on the bright side, I know that He gave me angels :) ♥

All I can say is : you’ll know who’s sincere and who’s not in being a friend - when something comes up.

Wanted to post my allergy pictures here. But after much thought, nahh! Don’t wanna really embarrass myself on the world wide web. Lolololol :)

Anyway, im glad to have been through that whole thing. I wasn’t upset whatsoever. I felt blessed. The serenity in me wasn’t what people would have when they encounter it, I guess. Somehow, I’d say the joy of the Lord flowed in me and I was really alright :) Sincerely, I wanna thank Him for it ♥

So far, everything is good and well. Had PMS for a few days and you noticed. Im sorry for shutting you down sometimes when our convo just ends there. Having PMS, I didn’t wanna put any effort in keeping the convo if it dies there. Alas, we talked about it and we’re good. Understanding :) Good!! You’re one of a kind. The thought of you being such a gentleman and holding your tongue when you reckon its inappropriate to say certain things is just amusing, I’d say :) Most guys I know wouldn’t give it any thought on whether its appropriate or not. LOL But I guess this is one of the many things I like about you. Hehe! Cheers x

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Back to Uni#4

2011-10-01T03:50:00.001+10:00

This is my 7th week in uni and this is only my 4th post about uni. EPIC :O Sorry guys, have really been slacking. IN EVERYTHING! Kinda lost myself somewhere, somehow. Its not that im not at home, but even if I am, couldn’t be bothered to blog. Don’t know what happened to my passion for writing. Ohhh wells! :) I promise to update as much as possible.

Had my Microeconomics test today. I think I did well. Rawr! Well because the questions were quite similar to the practice test they gave us on Blackboard. HAHAHA! :D I reckon its not all beneficial coz we’d know what to expect but at the same time, being students, our aim is to score. Pros and cons, yada yada – tell me about it :P

Got an email from my group. Have to show 50% of our assignment next Wednesday. Time to prove myself! I can do this. 不会让你们再看不起我 !!! Will sit down and do what im supposed to do tomorrow. Before and after cell until Sunday. *fingers crossed

Ohhh and im back to using Chinese from time to time. Haha! Thanks to HS :) :) :) Back in touch w my chinese roots, I reckon! Lol.

Its not that we disagree all the time but we have different views on things. Don’t know whether it’s a good or bad thing. Your optimism attracts me definitely, as well as your humor, your ability to make me laugh all day and smile all day. But what if we don’t have much in common? Less topic to talk about? Well, the way I see it now, we have heaps to talk about. But what about the long-run though? Hmmm… Or am I thinking too much again :| Ohhh, also if you discover this blog of mine, what would you say? Coz I told you that I privatized my blog when in fact it isnt. Just so I can have this personal space of mine. I wonder whether you’d be mad at the fact that I lied to you. It’s a white lie though, mean no harm :| Eeeks! x(

Hannah and I will be singing this Sunday 6pm service! With Colin and the band. Wheeee hoooooo! :D :D :D Misss emm! Its gonna be us two girls again. Surrounded by a bunch of talented males. Our 大哥们 :)

PS : Single doesn't always mean available and taken doesn't always mean in love ♥

PSS : why do I feel like you care so much about her? comment on her status all the time. Hmmm :|

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

The day I fell the hardest

2011-09-29T02:30:00.001+10:00

Okay. I didn’t fall. Not literally. Emotionally, yes :|

I felt so picked on. I felt bullied. I felt so disappointed. I felt so tired. I felt like I don’t even have any energy to argue back or stand up for myself. Did you have to give it to me today? Did you have to embarrass me infront of the whole class today? Did you have to constantly pick on me? You caught me off guard, I didn’t know what to say – my hands trembled. I know I shouldn’t make any excuses as to why I didn’t know what you guys were yapping the whole time. All I know is I slept at 6am because I rushed my Company Law assignment which is also due today. Didn’t go for the morning IBIS lecture because I know I couldn’t be bothered to sleep at 6am and wake up 8am. Also, I despise this subject so so much. Business Information Systems? ROARRRRRR! I don’t want to be associated with IT. The theories don’t interest me at all. Its so so not like my law subjects where they tell me a story, they give me a conclusion to why the decision is like that and what not. But this subject is so… BORING, SO DULL! =x

I really wanted to scream at you when you gave me that look. Other students asked you nicely, you answered them nicely. When I asked you nicely, you gave me that effing look! Seriously, I felt like smacking the crap out of that face. You have a problem with me, you tell me. The fact that you had to embarrass me infront of the class was to show that you had authority over me and that you could do anything in that stupid authority of yours to humiliate me. Well guess what, I reckon you’re just too much of a coward to come tell me you have a problem with me. A good teacher would ask me to stay back for awhile and have a talk with me. But I guess you’re not a good teacher, so you did what you did huh?

I am not like any other Asian groups where you think you can push me around. I don’t have difficulty speaking the language. I bet in that brain of yours, you reckon that all Asians have difficulty speaking English iizit? Well guess what sister!!!! You’re not any better. Seriously, your fake Australian accent is failing you so so bad! You’re obviously from some middle eastern country or some European country, thinking Asians cannot converse in English. I always observe the way you look at the Vietnamese guy who presents his work infront of the class. Yes, he stutters here and there, but at least he puts in effort to present in the simplest way possible. But you constantly have that puzzled look on your face – so discouraging! I don’t stutter when I speak, so if you want to talk to me, come and talk to me! Don’t give me that look and expect me to live with it. Annoyed. Im sure you’re 3 times my age but the way you acted the way you did today tells me that you’re a girl who’s half my age.

Wednesday is the longest and most tiring day because I have to spend my whole day in uni. When you show that stupid face of yours to me from 12.30pm –2.30pm, you’re only going to ruin the rest of the 5 hours I have in uni afterwards. Grrr. I am so so tempted to write you an email and forwarding it to Adi (Conveyor) and the Head of the Business Faculty. After speaking to Angela and Lance, I really really am tempted to. I wanted to stand up for myself.

However, on the way back to the city, I talked to HS about it. Once he said, “whats the point of confronting her?”, I had this immediate realization. He sounded like my dad :( He told me what I didn’t want to hear – I felt so so sensitive that I just kept quiet - “You were the one who skipped 2 weeks of tute and couldn’t present any results during your progress review.” “Might as well just do what you’re supposed to do and be done with this subject.”

I swear, my eyes became all watery. If its my dad, im 100% sure he is gonna say the exact same words to me.

At the same time, HS, you’re so insensitive to a girl’s feelings. Roar. But nonetheless, I appreciate your honesty. From the time I got to know you, you have never once told me anything that seems pleasant to my ears. You have been quite harsh all along. Ohh wells. Part of being phleg eh? :)

Came to a conclusion : Not going to confront her; not writing her an email or whatever. I’m just going to do the assignment and let her check it next week. Then I can be “IN YOUR FACE” :P Telling myself I am not going to fail this subject. I don’t want to retake this subject and face you anymore. I’m going to live my dreams and insignificant people like yourself will not matter to me. Wheeee! :D

Someone was so moody today. In the train, you wondered why I didn’t approach you in the library. Well, my explanation was easy – I knew you were tired. I just wanted you to rest. Since we stayed up together last night, I reckon you needed the rest more than I do because you have a test tomorrow also. Hmmm… Ohh ohhh ohhh, I love writing on post its and sticking em on you. Teehee! (: You will have that :O face on you. SHOOOO CUTE! Didn’t chat w you tonight because I know you were gonna burn the midnight oil, so might as well not distract you any further :) A man’s gotta do what a man’s gotta do. HEHE! Good luck tomorrow ♥

We have known each other for more than a month now ehh? Had laughs, lame jokes, intense discussions which led to minor arguments etc. Been to events together. BGR talk esp :) Remember this? Instead of thinking : “Is she/he the one for me?” , think about “How can I be the one for her/him?” ;) ;) Having the list is essential but I reckon that its all about how someone could be the one for me. Now I have to start thinking about what I can do and change in order for me to be THE ONE for someone. The fact that we both have discussed about how we want a relationship to be heading towards marriage, we have the same view and seriousness in this matter.

PS : Currently, I don’t think im the ideal woman for you. Haha! Still have room to improve and change.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

TWO is better than One

2011-09-29T00:40:00.001+10:00

Hannah and I ♥

Better known as the Leong sisters in the worship team too :) Haha!

Its funny how there are still questions like: “You both sisters??” LOL :O I mean, seriously… We’re constantly together, we have the same surname. Its weird how people think we’re not even related in any way. Okay fine! It’s alright if you don’t know we’re sisters, but at least related? Hmmm.

Fun facts: We’re 1yr5mths9days apart from each other. Woohoo! ;)

This picture was taken on Monday where we had spring cleaning at home. She somehow got the idea of camwhoring for awhile after cleaning up more than half of the house. Thus, this picture and others (well, the rest are on facebook. teehee.)

As I uploaded new pictures in the Similarities + Differences = SISTERS album, I went down memory lane. Looked back at the pictures we took since we got here until the recent photos we took together. Boy! Have we changed. Our hair is longer now and we gained some winter weight too. Haha! But one thing I’m very very sure on the inside… Despite going through all the ups and downs just within these 9 months of being here, the sisterly bond we had before we came, the bond that we have now and the bond we’re going to have in the future, wont change :)

Yes, we’re close. It only gets better from there. I know so ♥

PS : this is my 2nd post in the whole of September? Wow! Hazel, you have slacked heaps in blogging ehh? Hmm :|

Another one coming up!

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Withdrawal Symptom#1

2011-09-11T22:59:00.001+10:00

S.L.A.C.K!

I have been using this word a lot this week. Coz I have been SLACKING. Hmmm.

Anyway, I had Yu Ying change my Facebook password just so that I don’t go on until Thursday. Need to study for my Contract law test on Wednesday and upcoming assignments. I am starting to have withdrawal symptoms :|

Test together on Wednesday. Your assignment due Thursday. So I will be getting my Facebook back after you send em in? It’s the best for the both of us I reckon coz the both us really need to concentrate and do what we’re supposed to do – studies first! Feel bad for being a distraction. Anyway, I saw you today and will be seeing you on Wednesday. So it’d be alright. Don’t procrastinate :) Make use of the time I have given back to you.

Praying that He will guide me and guard my heart when it comes to this matter. I don’t want you to be another idol. This time, I want my relationship to have Him as the center of the relationship ♥

PS : imissyou. 4 more days :)

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#147

2011-08-28T02:35:00.001+10:00

The weather has been very good these few days. I love the warmth of the sun :D :D :D

Yesterday, I finished my Microecons lecture at 11.30am – 15 mins earlier actually, and so from there I met up with Eunice and Juls. EeeOoo girls. Had a lovely lunch with them @ Ramenya in the city along Bourke.

In the arvo, I decided to brisk walk around Princes Park. Walked with Cal. Just so happens he was on Facebook, I invited him to walk together and catch up. Amazingly, when you have someone to walk with you, you don’t feel it as much. One round after another. Altogether 6km. Hahaha! Its so funny how we talked and talked and talked and didn’t realize that we have already walked 2 rounds. It was a good chat tho! A good chap from the same hometown as I am. All the Msian accent :)

“No pain, no gain”

Gross!

I didn’t realize that I was bleeding until I took off my socks after the walk. When I was walking, I can feel the pain but it wasn’t that severe tho. Hmmm. Well, it appears that my toe nails peeled of the skin at the side of my 4th toe and that’s why it was bleeding. Ouch! By the time I discovered this, the blood dried up already. And when I washed the blood off before going to cell, the pain came back again. Eeeeks! x) But overall, I felt productive. I walked 2 and a half rounds today and had a good chat with Cal for a good 2 hours as well. Coolies! Headed off to cell wearing slippers instead because of the blisters and this cut.

Cell was all good despite there were only 5 of us. It was like a girl’s night or something because Alex was the only guy. Haha! Well, it was because Yu Ying changed cell to Friday this week since her friends are here to visit her and she wants to spend time with them on a Saturday. Understandable :D Many people couldn’t make it but we kept them in prayers. Overall, we discovered the importance of spiritual gifts and what our spiritual gifts could or could not be. Most of the booklets are with me for me to give my cell members tomorrow after service. So yeah, hopefully they’ll come and ask from me. Or else, I’ll just bring em back home again. Lol. Ohhhh, it was my first time leading worship in CHH since im still quite new there. But it was quite good, I reckon. I chose the songs which touched me the most as I was preparing earlier in the week. It was Lead me to the Cross and Oceans will part from Hillsongs :) :) :)

Alex made dessert after our bible study. “Foo chook yi mai” – Beancurd + Bali ♥ We had sharing while eating dessert. I shared my story about the whole imposing judgement on Lance when I thought he was a big cinapiao. Lol. After cell, Flo fetched Whitney and I home :) Cools! It saved me the effort of actually walking and tramming since I had blisters and it was cold last night. Teeehee! AWESOME

Currently listening to this song. Its addictive :D Not to forget…

When you asked me whether I’ve heard comments about me being a talker, I was like, “Does he want me to tone down?” :( Then when I seemed abit sensitive about it, you said you were okay with it because we’re opposites. Haha! And the fact that you said if I wasn’t a talker, we wouldn’t be having a convo for this long. True enough, we chat from the time you reached home from that seminar for Christian leaders :) I reckon we can talk about anything under the sun. Love seeing you putting in effort. Discovered something new today. Wheeee! You’re a phlegmatic. You’re slow in anger and don’t carry things overnight. You’re a peace maker. Definitely a plus. Surprises aint your thing but when I said people change over time and when sincerity is involved, you’ll be touched, you don’t deny the fact that you might change over time. This is shoooo cute! So far so good, definitely in my good books. Continue observing :) You’re doing alright, mate.

One word : Interesting.

PS : the first on my list – man of God. And you ticked it off today.

PSS : you don’t have to be perfect for someone to like you :))

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Back to Uni#3

2011-08-25T03:33:00.001+10:00

It has been quite some time since I used "Back to Uni” as my post title. LOL. Okay, that was SHOOO random :P

I sort of dislike Wednesdays! It’s the busiest and the most tiring day compared to the other days. Grr. And it gets to me each time. I have only 3 hours break. Early morning lecture followed by an hour lunch break and a whole afternoon of tutes, 2 hours break and then an evening lecture. Epic! Have to be in uni from 9.30am untill 7.30pm. 10 hours!!! I felt it in the morning already as I had to drag myself outta bed knowing that it would be a LOOOOOOOONNNNGGGG day ahead. All bitter and sour inside.

But I guess I feel much better after some fresh air. From the moment I step out of the back door until I reach Glenferrie train station. Constantly breathing in fresh air and I would not be as cranky as before. Ohh wells :)

Company law oh company law! I think I have been slacking in revising you. Oh you’re sucha pain! Seriously… Interesting but yet at the same time, sucha pain! Its like you’re designed to make my life miserable. Grrrr! No, I wont give up on you. I will strive even harder. Try me! More study time in the library. Angela and James. Study partners, lets do it yo! ♥ Start soon please.

Went for Microeconomics extra class today with the PASS team. Ohhh wow! I enjoyed that session even when it took up another hour of my break time. Didn’t know that Microeconomics could be that fun to learn. Haha! I reckon I will attend those PASS sessions for weeks to come just to not feel stressed studying Microeconomics on my own. Roar! And I made a few quick friends today. One of them is Lance. He is Malaysian as well – from Kuching =] Had coffee with him after the PASS session, joined by Angela next while waiting for time to pass – Contract Law. What can I say about this guy? Hmmm… It’s obvious that he’s Malaysian due to the accent he has (I sorta learnt the skill to listen to various accents people have) I spoke to him in Aussie slang at first and when I sorta felt comfortable talking to him, I went back to that whole Malaysian accent with a few “laaaa”s here and there :D Anyway, my first impression of him is that him being a BIG CINAPIAO! Why? Because I saw him with his leg on the chair like a Chinaman! I was like… Deng! Constantly in my mind, “Go back to China”. I also gave him that disgusted stare. LOL. The PASS facilitator saw and she led me to another seat and explained that he has a broken leg. Looked at him once again and noticed the clutches behind him. Only then was I sorta ashamed of myself for actually judging first before anything else. Ohh gosh, Hazel, where’s the whole “Judge not and you shall not be judged” principle? And so, we were in the same discussion group and I slowly conversed with him. He seemed somewhat snobbish in the beginning as well, like he knew everything. But putting that aside, I started the whole convo by a simple “Are you from Malaysia?” :) He replied and we had a LOOONNGGGG convo after that which led to the whole coffee thing after that. I truly believe now that everything starts with a smile and the sincerity of wanting to get to know another person better.

“If you wish to travel far and fast, travel light.
Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears.”

Special thanks to mummy who sent me this quote when I was having lunch. I prayed and meditated for awhile and turns out, my day wasn’t that bad after all ♥ Thank you, Lord.

And so, I got to sit next to you. However, you were really quiet and seemed moody when I said “Hi”. I was actually very discouraged to sit beside you but somehow, I just continued sitting there without having any convo with you. Maybe we’re so used to chatting online that it has been slightly awkward to converse face-to-face? Oh wells. Turns out I thought wrong as well when you approached me with that wide smile and “tiny” eyes of yours as I was waiting for the train. Haha! SHOOOO cute. I actually liked the whole convo we had in the train on the way back to the city. That deep voice. Wow! I remember when I first spoke to you, I was shocked because its so so deep – I reckon it’s a double bass. Haha. SHOOOO cute. Didn’t chat much online when we got home. You seemed rather cold, slightly turned off by that but when you apologized saying that you’re just feeling tired, I understood :) We had a long day today at uni anyway. Teeeehee!

Its still the same word : Interesting

PS : it has nothing to do with how you look or what you can do. its just you.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#146

2011-08-23T17:48:00.004+10:00

SHOOOOO cute :D

Communication. We as humans need this to have a constant interaction with one another. From there, only can the level of the relationship go deeper. The more we talk to each other and keep that conversation going, we get to know one another better. And to my surprise, i have found someone whom i can talk to about anything beneath the clouds again. It has been quite some time since i chat with someone about a whole lot of things. This person made my day. Haha! ;) Looking forward to talking more with him. One word : Interesting.

Ohh I'm in the library and he's at home. Accompanied me on chat this whole arvo. I am actually working on my weekly submission - to be handed in tomorrow. Saving it and printing it at home. Leaving for Alpha soon. Wont blog until tomorrow. Will be seeing him tomorrow. Coolios ;D At least he would be there to sit through the lecture together with me.I dont wanna be struggling alone :) Till then, x

PS : you cut off a few requirements on the list, to be honest :)

I believe in a better tomorrow
Heaps of LOVE x,
hazellll

It’s a time for celebration! :)

2011-08-22T01:02:00.001+10:00

Whoah whoah whoah!

I feel like my weekend is never-ending. Oh, how I love weekends ♥ Heaps of interesting events took place despite me not really feeling well. Boohooo! x) But yeah, I still had fun, nonetheless!

What would I do without ISM? Geeee! The thought of this makes me tremble. Rawrrr. One of the many reasons I fell in love with Melbourne in the first place. Being an ISMer ♥

Back to what I was supposed to say… There’s more than one reason to celebrate this weekend yo! Darina’s baptism, Lolie & Nelson’s 21st!!!!

11am service this morning witnessed Darina’s baptism. Wohooo! EeeOoo’s sexytary. Haha :D

Her whole family came from Brunei for her brother’s graduation and also to witness her baptism. It’s certainly a big day for her :) :) SHOOOOOOO happy for her. *hugggggs

After service, had lunch with Jaja, Jean, Wilson, Eugene and Hannah. This is because Wilson is going back to HK :( Roar. Like Hannah said, we just started to get to know this guy, and now he is going back. “Life span” of an international student here in this foreign land. Ahhh wells. I reckon it will always happen. Not only this time. So we have to get use to this. Hmmm…. Yeahhh, he will be missed. Gave him a HUGE hug before saying our goodbyes! ♥

Rushed home to finish up the birthday card for Loliie :) I know I am not obliged to buy him a present or do anything since we’re gonna celebrate tonight but yeah, I felt like I wanted to do something and not just go empty handed. Because I rushed since its so last minute, I didn’t manage to take a picture of my masterpiece. Haha! But it definitely looks similar to this…

I spent exactly an hour and abit to finish it up :) Glad that I did it although it was abit tedious to stick the punched papers into a nice spiral. I managed to paste a simple birthday wish behind the BIG PAPER LOLLIE. Teeehee (: Rushed to his house after that.

Birthday boy wasn’t there but his house was filled with his friends. Interesting. His housemate invited me to celebrate his birthday. Was shocked at first because I never joined this “Macau” gang before – consists of mostly Indos, Malaysians, Singaporeans, Bruneians, Koreans and Chinese. This group of people are pretty well integrated :) And guess what, I love this type company. Despite the fact that they are a lot older but it’s definitely an experience. Anyway, we gathered and leave together for a Korean BBQ buffet in Caulfield.

So many of us from church. Wen & Viv, Jax & Juls, Jerome, Cous, Andu, Loliie, Nelson, Rainer, Glenn, Chrystal, Eleanor, Alex, Ivan, Darina, Joanne, Shaun, Shelly and myself. Woohoo! We dominated the whole BBQ restaurant. Hahahaah :D It was an All-You-Can-Eat-Buffet. Awesome pawesome ;) Time limit is 1hr30mins. We can order all the meat we want for the BBQ. And not to mention, Australian beef has the best quality in the whole wide world. Hence, its only wise to order heaps and heaps of beef. Lol.

I was so full after the buffet, it wasn’t funny. Lol. Almost had to loosen my jeans’ button. Haha! Cous couldn’t stop ordering more and more meat. Seriously, guys eat a lot! Thankgoodness they work out, or else… Nothing much after dinner. I went back to “Macau” where I handed Loliie his birthday card. I didn’t wanna hand it to him infront of Cous or Alex because they wouldn’t stop teasing the both of us. Seriously, all these teasing should stop man!

All in all, I really enjoyed my weekend. Esp tonight. I got to know the “Macau” gang better :) This crazy and fun group of people. They are very welcoming to begin with. Even invited me to hang out there more often. Haha! I guess I might, depends on how much work I have at hand. And these people really eat good food. They know the best places to eat and don’t mind going the distance just for a meal. Coolios! :D Ohhh, tonight’s dinner was $40. I know it’s a bit too much but I guess to celebrate 2 guys’ 21st together, its worth it! :D

Winter came and is going soon! Ohemgeee, cant wait for it to be gone. I am so so sick of this weather really. Grr :X I am getting better. Still have a slight congested nose and a slight dry cough. No worries! Totally the seasonal cough.

PS : love the way you take care of me everytime we sit together when eating.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#145

2011-08-16T01:21:00.001+10:00

I am cranky.

I am not feeling well.

GRRRRRRR! x(

I want winter to end now!!!!!!! Hate it.

PS : will blog when I feel better

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#144

2011-08-12T22:05:00.001+10:00

There was a briefing at June’s today for tomorrow’s ISM day trip to Great Ocean Road :) This day trip is to make the newcomers feel comfortable mixing around and stuff like that. I am helping out. Unfortunately, I still don’t know which group am I in. Roar! Will only know tomorrow. Lol :D I am quite excited to meet the new people.

Twelve Apostles

I had dinner with Jaja and the bunch and head to church. There was an audition for the music ministry for this new semester. This time I went there as an audience instead of auditioning. Haha! I so remember my audition the other day. Lol. But this time around, there were heaps of people who auditioned. SCARY MUCH! x)

I am going to Nick’s and crashing there because we will be going to church in a bunch tomorrow early in the morning. Mummy and daddy, if you’re reading this, don’t worry okay? It’s more convenient this way because tomorrow really is early and the tram schedule sucks! Nick’s and Jaja’s place are closer to church.

I will be home tomorrow at night. Till then, loveyouguys! ♥

PS : groovy people

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Random Rants#143

2011-08-12T16:26:00.001+10:00

Oh goodness!

This advertisement is so so sad, its not funny :’( I cried and sobbed like a mad person in my room.

Just wanted to share :) Appreciate your parents, people! Regardless of how much they nag you or lecture you, always keep in mind that they love you a whole lot and will do anything for you because you’re their flesh and blood. Awwwww! I miss my daddy ♥ and my mummy too. Mwuahhh! x

PS : going to a briefing at June’s now. Blog more later. Will be seeing him there. Awkward? Idk.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Back to Uni#2

2011-08-12T04:26:00.001+10:00

Spent the whole day in uni on Wednesday. From 9.30am until 7pm. Business information systems lecture was oh-so-boring. Gahh! Why do I have to take subject, omg? Apparently, its essential for every company/corporation/organization as a database and foundation for the whole structure. Oh wells. I will be using the computer a lot for this subject. We’re even going to have one hour of computer lab time for this subject a week. All on Wednesday. Wednesday is a whole day of lectures and tutorials for me. Roar ttm! x(

Anyway, yeah I sat through the morning lecture with Nadia and Angela. My two friends who are very much Aussies. Lol. Angela is still new to me, but I know we can be quite close since we’re doing the same subjects throughout year 2 and 3 :) For Angela and I, we will basically spend our whole Wednesday together because we have the same lectures in the morning and also in the evening. We went to the evening Contract Law lecture in the Engineering Building together. Whoop whoop :P Guess who I saw? Ho Sea Herman! A guy from church who went to Easter Camp as well. And I have not seen him around in church ever since. Apparently, he joined the exchange student program to Japan for one semester. That’s why. Lol. He didn’t recognize me. BOOOHOOO! He later on recognized me when I said Hi to him in church after Roundtable.

I left the lecture after an hour with Angela because I had Roundtable in church that night. Angela left because she lives really far from uni and her sister is waiting for her in the city. So we left together. It wasn’t due to the lecture being boring or whatever. Instead, I find the lecturer – Steven, really good! :) We did a recap of what we studied in business law last semester about contract. And he explained it so well that it reminded me why I loved law in the first place. Awwwww! I fell in love with law once again ♥ Somehow I had this feeling when I was about to finish Form 5. I know I know, people say I was fast in deciding what I wanted to do in the future. But yeah, I knew I had this love for law and I just went ahead with it :D

Back to the story, Roundtable that night was about Islam and Christianity. When I arrived in church, I was so so happy to see so many people there. Wow! I have never seen Roundtable sessions full with people. I guess its because of the topic. I have to say it was a really GOOD topic. Ps Sandy and Maria invited some of their Muslim friends as well.

So…

This is what I have concluded from the whole session.

Yes. Islam and Christianity have quite a few similarities such as the fact that both their mothers heard a voice when they were pregnant (Gabriel the angel came to Mary ; Amina heard a voice talking to her out of no where) and also the part where both Jesus and Muhammad can tell of the future and prophesize. But still, the teachings are rather different. Jesus preaches and spreads the love of God around whereas Muhammad warns people of God’s wrath when people don’t obey him and God (more to instilling fear). Jesus’ teaching, “When someone slaps you on your left cheek, turn your right cheek also.” But Islam is opposite. When enemies denied their teachings, they killed and had war upon them. Jesus is the son of God whereas Muhammad is just a man of flesh and blood. That’s why when they were faced with a woman who committed adultery, both the outcomes were different. Jesus said to the men who demanded she be stoned to death, “Let those who are without sin throw the first stone.” Jesus is without sin but He didn’t even stone her when He could. Whereas, Muhammad ordered people to stone the woman because he was just obeying the law that God has set for them. Also, Jesus did heaps and heaps of miracles whereas, Muhammad did not perform any miracle at all. When people questioned Muhammad, God asked him to answer, “Miracles are meant to be performed by God. I am just a messenger, a man.” One is God and the other is just a man. I can totally see the difference now. Despite having so many similarities, I definitely understood more now and casted out the doubts I had before :) Plus, Muhammad only existed 600years after Jesus died and resurrected.

Why do Muslims not acknowledge that Jesus is the son of God? Because Muhammad said so. Its stated in the al-Quran that Jesus is a prophet because Muhammad said so. The whole al-Quran is based on what Muhammad said when he was alive and different people had different interpretations of what he said. So yeah, there is no significant proof that Jesus is not the son of God if we were to refer to the al-Quran. Its definitely invalid due to the fact that it came out from a person’s mouth and different people interpreted what he said differently and just put it all together.

It was Aaron’s last night before he left for Malaysia as well. Awwww! Hannah and I miss this silly, funny and at times irritating brother of us :’)

He’s the one with the tie :) Aaron Lau yo!

Lastly, me and Joelynn sayang :) ♥

PS : “maybe she doesn’t even know that she has already fallen for him.” What they said today, kept me thinking, Hmmm… True? I don’t know :|

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

-EeeOoo Retreat : GRAMPIANS- #2

2011-08-12T03:16:00.001+10:00

These pictures are from Julie (I call her Juls)

Raining cats and dogs :( Drenched max! Had to walk really carefully towards the waterfall due to the slippery rocks. Whooop whooop!

It stands for EeeOoo :) ♥

The guys were supposed to represent “E” and the gals “O”.

We’re one BIGGG family yo! (: And I am officially the youngest in this family. Hahaahah! I love the feeling of being the youngest at least somewhere. Lol.

Move on move on…

PBJ – my previous cell :) Definitely miss you fun and crazy Malaysians and Singaporeans.

I have exchanged it for…

CHH ♥ Unpredictable, crazy and out of this world people from Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia, China, Korea and Mexico. People who are at least 4 years my senior and they treat me with extreme care because im the youngest. First time ever, I get to be the youngest somewhere. Haha!

After a whole morning of hiking under the rain, we head home and spend the rest of the day just having fellowship with each other. Ate lunch, rest, dinner, dessert and a debriefing of Welcome Night.

Yearp! And all of us applied facial masks before going to bed :) Even the guys! Heeeee :P This is what I am talking about, man! ♥

PS : cant wait for the next retreat with this awesome family of mine.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

-EeeOoo Retreat : GRAMPIANS- #1

2011-08-10T01:45:00.001+10:00

Like I promised.

All these pictures are from Weixun. Teeehee (: I will grab from June, Juls and Sarah soon. So for now, this is all I have.

This is the hiking day supposedly. Haha! :D But it was raining heavily that many AWESOME places were closed due to the slippery steps and what not. Awww! So we had to make do with the lookout of McKenzie falls.

The scenery at the lookout of the waterfalls was so breath taking. This is why I love Aussie’s mother nature. It’s so beautiful :P ♥

Then came the pictures of individual cells. PBJ (Dimsum+Sashimi), Carlton Happy Hours and other minorities. Lol.

I Heart CHH ♥

I did have some shots with the PBJians as well :) Its with Juls and June. Will grab soon.

Will summarize the whole trip after I finish posting the pictures! Toodles x

PS : imissthemomentsalready. my first retreat in this Aussie Land ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Back to uni #1

2011-08-10T01:11:00.001+10:00

First day of uni for my 2nd semester yo!

As I expected, I would have difficulties waking up. Plus, its so so cold in the morning, I just wanna lie in bed where its comfortable and cozy because of my warm and thick sleeping bag. Haha x) Literally dragged myself outta bed when my alarm rang at 6.30am, snoozed until it was 6.40am. Lol. I think I will make it a habit to wake up every morning and have a hot shower to go to uni. Geeee! Although I really dislike the cold, I love feeling fresh and awake after the shower. Imma make it a habit :)

When I was about to leave the house, I couldn’t find my earphones. I tripped instantly. Hence, a moody morning. I used my old earphones which are slightly broken (the right side barely has any music coming out from it at all) and rushed to uni. I was angry. I immediately text Hannah and said I want to see my earphones when I got home after uni. After I sent the text, I felt quite guilty to be so so fierce in the morning. Managed to calm myself down before I arrived in uni. Just in time for lecture. Pheeww!

Can you imagine having a law lecture at 8.30am in the morning? Ohemgee! Someone shoot me now. I was excited but was not expecting it to be oh-so-refreshing since its so early in the morning and I have a really boring and LOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGGGG lecture on the history of company law. Constantly yawning and it was so so contagious as well. If I so much so as see someone yawn or hear a yawn, I would yawn. Whole lecture was yawning one by one. HAHA! :D Early morning blues.

Caffeine! :)

I waited for Nadia to come to uni in the afternoon even when I could go home right after 10.30am just to catch up over hot chocolate and cappuccino ♥ we talked and talked non stop because we havent seen each other since the day we watched Harry Potter together. Lol. Heaps of dramas happened in between. Oh wells, I filled my partner in crime with the details. And it is by talking to her and sharing how I felt about the whole thing that inner peace overflew in me after that. She gave her opinions as a ‘white’ (if you may). I guess they really have different views of things when compared to a born and bred Asian. Haha! Thank God for her :) ♥

Anyway, I made a new awesome friend today. We went to the same QA tutes last semester and we’re now having 3 out of 4 subjects together this semester. Her name is Angela (Luong) and she’s very very PRETAYY! Same age some more. WAHAHAHAHAHAH! Awesome.We’re taking the same professional major – Commercial Law. Teeeheee (: And guess what, she’s an ABC. Australian Born Chinese. Her parents are originally from Cambodia. So yeah! Wheeee! We will be going to the same lectures tomorrow morning together with Nadia. 3 of us could make good friends.

PS : fruits of the spirit – love peace and joy ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Count your blessings

2011-08-09T18:41:00.001+10:00

Daddy always says this, “Count your blessings everyday.”

These few months, I havent been counting my blessings. Oh wells, He works in AMAZING ways to make me realize. I just want to thank Him for His faithfulness, patience, mercy and grace over me. I have said and done heaps of unpleasant things throughout, yet, He never forsakes me. He was there to hold me when im in the valley and when I needed Him the most. Only He knows my cries and my worries.

I am awake now after speaking to many people He placed in my life to help me go through this crazy phase of my life. His timing is so accurate, its not funny. That’s why I always believe that He is in control of everything and He has His own reasons to why things happen like they do. I have learnt to not blame anyone but to take it as it is as He has His plans and ways to open my eyes and touch my heart.

Spoke to Nadia today and I felt inner peace overflowing within me. He revealed His answers to me through her today :)

Thank You, Lord for being a merciful and loving God to me ♥

PS : You’re beautiful, Lord. I am eternally grateful

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#23

2011-08-09T00:25:00.001+10:00

Have been back since yesterday evening. Extremely exhausted! x( I wonder how the others woke up today because I myself slept for 14 hours. Woke up with an aching left thigh. Boohooo for me.

Anyway, I will blog all about my trip tomorrow. Hopefully *fingers crossed*

Lovin’ this song yo! Constantly playing on the radio as we hit the roads last weekend :)

This is the official last post for the WINTER BREAK category. Because tomorrow is my official first day in uni again. Grr! Despite disliking the fact that I have to wake up super early on Tuesdays due to my 8.30am Company Law lecture, I am actually quite excited to start school again. Whooops! :D

Ohh ohhh ohhh! One more update, went through my uni bookshop online, oh gosh! The law textbooks are EXPENSIVE yo! I know I have bought some second hand texbooks off a senior but they are all for the coming semesters. And now, I have decided that I don’t think I would want to buy textbooks already. Will just have to make do with staying back in uni after the lectures and borrow from the library :) Simpler and cheaper way!

I guess by that way, not only do I get to save money, but I also have a reason to revise after my lectures. With the textbooks at hand, I tend to take them for granted and not go through them. This, I learnt from experience after 1st semester. Lol

Okay! I am going to bed now. Have to wake up at 6.30am tomorrow. Roar! Nights.

PS : gentleman ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#22

2011-08-05T04:56:00.000+10:00

Grampians!

I am excited :D :D

It’s the EeeOoo retreat yo! We have been planning this trip for the past 2 months already. And now its finally here. *jump jump jump*

I cant sleep due to the excess excitement in me. Leaving in another 12 hours. Pack pack pack away people ♥

I will be MIA from the whole internet world until I come back on Sunday. Heee :P Promise, more pictures coming your way.

PS : he is so adorable, its not funny :P

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#21

2011-08-05T04:08:00.001+10:00

ignore what the photos have to say.

I just like to share them :)

It has been one week since I blogged. Haha! Slacker big time :P

Lets just say that last week was really CRAZY for me. Especially the weekends.

Friday

Hannah’s 18th Birthday!

It was an amazing night. Dropped by a luxurious bar overlooking the whole Melbourne city for a few drinks before proceeding to dinner at Docklands. We had Greek for dinner. Yummm! I loved the Pitta bread heaps ♥

Jie loves you ♥

Saturday

Lord Mayor’s Students Welcome and Welcome Night :P

Had lunch with EeeOoo in church courtesy of Kailyn and Couscous. Pasta and Fish Fingers (quite pricy), thanks to Couscous. Lol.

Went to Lord Mayor’s for awhile that afternoon. Packed with people – mostly students, I reckon. Plus, it was drizzling abit that afternoon. Hmmm. Just dropped by to say hi to church members who were at the Cross Culture booth and see how the event is turning out :)

Didn’t have the opportunity to take photos during Welcome Night due to the stress of trying to be efficient in serving food to others in the kitchen and stuff like that. But altogether, the event was quite successful because many newcomers came from Lord Mayor’s. That’s the main aim. To welcome new students to Melbourne and also introduce our church to them :)

Sunday

Sang during service with Adrian and the team again :P I reckon the band that I sing with are all pro musicians! We have Tse Min who is an awesome drummer, Andy who rocks the stage with his electric guitar, Jean who gives a soft touch to the whole team with the piano and Ben who is groovy with his bass.

To be honest, the songs last week were all in high voice range. I certainly struggled to reach the notes at some point. Well, like I said before, when I try to reach the high notes, my oesophagus tends to narrow down and the air would flow less which results in my voice being sharp and soft. They are all in key, no doubt. But its just too sharp. Thankgoodness for Bell :) She helped me with some harmonizing. Wheee! After the 9am service, I felt better when I sang during 11am and 6pm because I harmonized in the lower voice range. I felt more confident and more comfortable with the range im singing in.

PS : just trust in the Lord, He will make things right again =]

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazellll

Winter Break#20–HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2011-07-29T00:18:00.001+10:00

Someone is turning 18 today!

My sister and my best friend.

You are 18 already, no longer a kid. LEGAL NOW! And with this, comes heaps of responsibilities. I know you have been waiting for this day to come so that you can drink. Lol. But I hope you wont go crazy with this privilege.

Regardless, Jie hereby wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May you be an abundant blessing to everyone around you. May you continue to serve Him and serve others like what you’re doing now. Jie is ever so proud of you :) ♥ May we continue to grow together in Him.

Loveyou!

PS : Don’t cry la silly. You’re not alone on your bday *hugggs

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#19

2011-07-28T04:21:00.001+10:00

Chocolate cake is a yum! Hannah baked some today. Whee! Nommnomms :D Woke up to the fragrant smell from the oven. Haha! Just adore how she pampers us with yummy desserts :3

I love how the choc cake + icing melts in my mouth when I take my first bite. Haha! ♥

*pats self* I feel quite productive today. I did some chores - threw the clothes into the dryer, took ‘em out and fold them after that. Well I had three batches of clothes to fold actually. Both Hannah’s and mine. Watched Huan Zhu Ge Ge at the same time when I was at it. Its amazing how females are designed to multitask well :D Ironed some clothes as well. I cleaned up our cupboard – at least my part of the cupboard tho :P Cleaned up the book shelf for my incoming textbooks for this semester.

Fingers crossed, you guys know who these two are… JAYESSLEE!

They are twins (duhhh :P) Their voices blend properly whenever one sings the melody and the other harmonizes. I reckon the voices blend nicely because they are sisters. Haha! Seeing the both of them, it encourages Hannah and myself to sing together more often. Whenever both of us have nothing to do at home, I will just play the piano and Hannah plays the guitar. Most of the time, she will sing the melody and I will harmonize. Awwww! I love the warm and nice feeling whenever I’m singing with my sister. Our voices blend nicely and when they don’t, we’ll just laugh about it and try again. Nope, we wont record ourselves and put on Youtube. Lol. Paiseh ;D

The other night, I was practicing my harmonies for this weekend’s service. Especially this one, “Once Again” –Hillsong. Hannah helped me with the melody. There we were, my sister and I, just singing and bonding ♥

Thank you, mummy and daddy for all these years of music lessons – Me with the piano, Hannah with guitar :) We wont let it go to waste. We will serve Him in every area we can with our gifts, our strengths and our might. Glad that you’re happy we’re doing alright here and that we’re in good hands. Teehee! He has a plan for us here ♥

PS : "自从有了你, ，世界变得好美丽" is stuck in my head. Huan Zhu Ge Ge ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#18

2011-07-26T01:38:00.001+10:00

Currently crazy about this old show “Huan Zhu Ge Ge”. It has 50 over episodes. Rushing to finish all of them before uni starts since I have 2 more weeks to spare. Roar!

At the same time, I finished helping out Lord Mayor’s and Welcome Night promo. This week will be busy yo! :D Thursday EeeOoo meeting and worship practice, Friday Hannah’s bday dinner with Ku che and Uncle Dan, Saturday WELCOME NIGHT, Sunday worship. My holidays are ending soon. I used to say I cant wait for my holidays to end. Now, I don’t want it to end. HAHAHAH! Humans, never satisfied :P

Alpha Course starts tomorrow. Since I have graduated from LWLCourse last week, I am taking up the Alpha Course tomorrow :) Teeehee! I have my sister and many friends with me. Cant wait.

PS : Yong Qi and Er Kang are awesome boyfriends. Aww! I love their lovestories.

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#17

2011-07-22T04:33:00.001+10:00

The gift of peace, love and joy :)

I have been having this cookiing and bakiing frenzy lately. Just wanting to try out heaps and heaps of different recipes. Haha! Fill in my time and also my TUMMY :D Woots.

Long story short, Hannah and I graduated from Life Worth Living Course last Tuesday. Wheee! Alpha Course is next baby ♥

Had a good afternoon walk around Melb Uni and lunchtime with Couscous yesterday. We got to know each other a little better now. We should keep it up until our retreat comes. Whee! And I had EeeOoo today. We shoot the video for Welcome Night. Wooohooo. Glad its over. It really was energy-draining. Couscous was so worn out, it was not funny =] Hope he had a good rest after tonight. Ohhh Calvin walked me home tonight. His place was SHO out of the way but he insisted it wasn’t safe as it was too late for me to walk home (no more trams). From church to my place was a good 45 minutes walk, I reckon. It was freezing cold but a good chat and a good walk with someone really distracts you from the cold. Haha! And again, we got to know something more about each other.

He placed so many people in my life and we all have a common thing : we are His children ♥ I received a sudden message from her. Was really moved with what she wrote. I felt so encouraged and in return, I encouraged her with a few verses from the bible as well. Awwww! I really appreciate this friendship we have. ♥

PS : have been slacking :|

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#16

2011-07-17T04:02:00.001+10:00

Had 3 hours of sleep. Dragged myself outta bed for my practice :O Cuppa coffee and I am ready to go babyy!

STREET E rehearsal

I just realized that the lights in the church auditorium resembles the stars in the sky which shines ever so brightly. Serenity ♥

The Grand Piano. I love playing it. I hope I can play for service in the future :) And the drums go BANG BANG BOOM! ♥

This is our team for STREET E tomorrow.

Synth : Wilson

Guitar : Lauren

Singers : Adrian, Eugene, Hannah and myself ♥

# Your Love has Saved Us – Mia Fieldes ♥

Hannah and I will lead this song tomorrow. I will be singing harmonies :) Teeehee! Nervous but excited. Wheeee.

Green ♥

I always use the green microphone when I’m singing on stage. It shall be my friend as long as I am serving and worshipping Him infront of the congregation. It is stained with the sweat of my palms. Awwww! May you not fail me, oh friend :)

We will be out on the streets infront of church tomorrow afternoon as we sing and just play music and we hope to evangelize to the people on the streets. Spread the Good News through songs :) ♥ Proclaim that He is the Lord our God.

Will definitely take more pictures tomorrow x

Today is officially my first day being a member of Carlton Happy Hours. As we were going through the bible study, I really felt the togetherness of the cell in wanting to grow spiritually with each other. People in this cell are mostly young working adults and they’re more mature in a sense when it comes to the understanding of God’s word. I really grew quite a lot though the bible study I had with them for the past 3 weeks now. We had dinner together after cell @ Chinatown and went back to Yu Ying’s for dessert – CHOCOLATE-MOCHA SPONGE CAKE :) Yu Ying is a supportive cell leader and never fails to care for each and everyone of us ♥ Spoke to her and she is like an elder sister to me. She understands me and I can really relate to her. I am happy to be in this cell group. Now all I want to pray for is peace.

Father Lord, I just want to thank You for all You have given me – people You have placed in my life and heaps of undeserved blessings day by day. Thank You for the opportunity to serve You in this church, Lord – Worship Ministry, EeeOoo Ministry, Alpha Ministry and this new cell group. I pray for contentment and inner peace, Lord Father. Everything that I have is given by You and You are in control over everything. I pray that You will show me what it is like to live a content life and not to be greedy, wanting more than what You have given me, Lord. As for inner peace, I pray for enlightening of my heart that I shall let go unwanted grudges and bitterness for the joy in You, Lord Father is my strength. I want to just commit the worship team into Your hands, Lord Father as we sing praises with hopes of evangelism tomorrow. I pray for good weather to evangelize to the people on the streets and that You will touch the hearts of people to come to know You, Lord Father. That they will come to know Your GREAT LOVE for us. Thank You, Lord Father :) I love You ♥ In the name of Jesus I pray, Amen.

PS : Through a cross, I am made so wonderfully new ♥

I believe in a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE x,

hazelll

Winter Break#15

2011-07-16T03:35:00.001+10:00

Random.

Anyway, I am so so sleepy. My eyes are closing after 11 hours infront of the laptop finishing the subtitles. FINALLY!!!!!

I just sent them to Andi. Ohhh goodness, it is so energy draining. Roar! I am supposed to bake Milo coookies as snacks but its so late now and I’m uber tired. Wooooops x(

Have to wake up early tomorrow for worship practice Street E which is happening on Sunday with Adrian and the rest of the team. I don’t know whether I will be playing the piano/synth or will I be singing. Hmmmm… Cant wait to find out :)

I have weird dreams lately. I think the cold is getting to me. Lol :D I’m sleeping in my comfy sleeping bag (on my bed) with two layers of blanket over me as well. Gahhh! Wake up, shivering. Ohhh no! Another 2 more months like this? Suffering :(

Okay. I better get going. Long day tomorrow. Worship practice. My new cell ♥

I am always assuming the worse of people. I have to let loose. Or maybe its just today because I’m not in the mood as I’m rushing the whole subtitle thing? Ohh well. I feel bad.

PS : I wish you well but I do think of you even if its only for awhile :| Memories.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#14

2011-07-15T03:06:00.001+10:00

“She has been MIA on Facebook these 2 days!” claimed Kailyn.

Hahaha! Wow. I didn’t know that they would actually monitor me on Facebook. Apparently, I am competing with Juls for the “Facebook Queen” title? Lol. I guess this is why I love EeeOoo. They are concern in every way.

Hopefully I wont hold the title for long esp when uni commences. Because here comes all the reading subjects. Hope I wont procrastinate as much :) *fingers crossed*

We were busy cutting the flyers for Welcome Night today at EeeOoo’s weekly meeting. At the same time, Alex shared his lovestory with us. Haha! The guys are slowly getting attached. Its like they’re competing. HAHAHAHHAH! Joking :P

I personally like to see two people happy being together. I feel this excitement and joy for them. I guess I am just psyched for that special day when that special someone appears and I too can have those special days. Ohhh don’t worry, I am waiting for someone who is worthy this time :) Hope to make it right this time ♥

Dinner oh dinner : Mongolian Beef on Rice at Namloong.

Had Hannah by my side throughout this whole holiday. Only sometimes would I be home alone when she is working. I am grateful to have her as my sister, my bestfriend ♥ She accompanied me to EeeOoo today and did her homework when we had our discussion. Awww! Love her! :D

Street E this Sunday! It stands for Street Evangelism. I will be playing the keyboard during the worship session. It will be after the 11.15am service. Having lunch in church this Sunday I guess :) Ohh and the practice is this Saturday. Wooohooo! Excited.

In everything I do, I shall put all my trust in Him. I believe that everything happens for a reason and from there, He will guide my every step. Amen ♥

PS : one more video to go! =]

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#13

2011-07-12T23:54:00.001+10:00

Have been doing basically nothing other than staying home and cleaning up, cooking and stuff like that :|

Had kuche over for brunch yday. Good catching up. And she offered us to stay over at her place for days. Hannah and I havent decided on when. But yeah. I could sleep over anytime but only thing is Hannah. We have to take into account her work shifts. Hmmm. Anyway, back to the story, we watched Wolverine together :)

Hot chocolate :D

I make awesome hot chocolate from scratch. Really. Haha! I put a pinch of salt into it as well because apparently, it brings out the chocolate flavor more. If you want to try it, come over and knock on my door. Lol. We had it at the same time, my dear :)

Just came back from church. Went for LWLCourse. This is our 2nd last week already. Awwww! I will miss it for sure. The awesome friends that I have made over the weeks :) Today, I played the piano and Hannah played the guitar. The singers were the Susilo sisters (Angelin and Chaterine – Mugs’ beautiful sisters). So we had two pairs of sisters on the worship team today! Wheee :D I love being around them. Foreseeing Hannah and myself to become like them. And I meant in terms of the closeness between the sisters regardless of how old we get ♥

Today’s message was about NEW AMBITIONS.

Its not wrong to have ambitions. As long as our ambitions are subordinated towards the supreme ambition which is to know Christ :) We have to separate self ambitions and God ambitions. As long as we can separate them and balance them properly, its okay. Don’t prioritize our self ambitions so much so that we neglect God ambitions. They asked me what my ambitions were and I said I would love to be a lawyer. And the way I see it, alongside studying, I am serving as well. I think that as long as balance them up properly, I’ll be fine.

I thank you, uncle for your wise words. “You must prioritize properly and remember you’re a student and your priority should be your studies,” that was what he said when I showed my interest in joining another course. I was sensitive about his tone but I understood in the end. I guess the reality is that I would be busy with university when it starts so its best if I don’t take everything all at once. Its for my own good. I know that I will burn out in the end. Lol.

PS : we’re so right but it’s the gap which stands in the way.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#12

2011-07-11T04:11:00.001+10:00

Felt quite productive when I cooked dinner, did laundry, clean up the house a bit. Haha! At least better than doing nothing. Lol :P

Ohhh ohhh ohhh, I feel bad for two things today. I didn’t go to church at all today. Roar x( Feel like a bad girl. And another thing is when I did the laundry, it didn’t come to my mind that my jeans’ color would fade. So I put Hannah’s work clothes with my jeans and washed it altogether. So now, her working tee has shades of blue on it. She was so upset. Ohhh no! :(

Thank God she was reasonable in the end. She went in the showers and came out singing praises. I was SHOCKED and felt WEIRD at first but she said, “I should not hold onto things of the earth. So I am not angry anymore.” Hmmm…

Apparently, the message today at church was about letting go off earthly things. And its good to see my sister applying it in life. Still, I feel bad. We hugged and made up :)

I made dessert though. Heeee!

Thanks to Couscous who made the Chocolate Croissant Pudding yesterday, it was so YUMMMMM I just couldn’t have enough. Hence, the replica :D ♥

I also had a good time catching up with Jaslene through Whatsapp. Heeeee :P Ohemgee. I miss her HEAPS! Partner in crime last year when we were fresh in college. Haha!

Awwww! Jaslene, I wish you were here. Geeeee! I remember our dreams of studying here in Australia together. I am already here, when are you coming? :(

I am changing cell. From Dimsum to Carlton Happy Hours. And I am thankful for the blessings given by Hannah, David and my new cell leader – Yu Ying ♥ Hannah gave me her blessing after so many days because she couldn’t figure out why her sister is separating with her. She wants us both to serve together in the same cell, ministry and worship team. But it is necessary for me to make this change because it has something to do with where I could grow spiritually. In the end, she understood that she cant be selfish and locking her sister up to herself :) Awwww! Silly girl, we’re still sisters no matter what we do or where we serve or who we serve with. Jie feels sad to be separated in a sense but am happy that im doing this for my own good. Thanks for understanding. David was shocked when I informed him and told him about my decision. But he said that it’s a good cell and as long as its necessary for my spiritual growth, he doesn’t mind and he understands :) Thanks for everything. As for Yu Ying, she welcomed me with open arms. Honestly, I could click and relate to her at times which led me to my decision. I feel very comfortable with her and the cell. I am excited to be growing and walking together with these new people throughout my journey ♥

Above all, I would love to thank Him for being faithful in answering my prayers and my worries. Only He knows what is happening inside me. The struggles and doubts that I have been having regarding this matter. Thank You, Lord :) ♥

Proverbs 3: 5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

Dimsum, Iloveyouguys!

PS : as I look back at our pictures, I cant help but feel sad :( Bye Dimsum.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#11

2011-07-10T03:51:00.001+10:00

First and foremost, I would like to express my gratitude and thankfulness for having AWESOME people placed in my life by Him :) Each and single one of them represents a different color and together, they make my life so colorful ♥

Went to their cell again – Carlton Happy Hours. I didn’t expect them to wait for me in order to start their cell but they did. Awwww! These people are so lovely. I guess in every way, they really make me fall in love with them ♥ YuYing, Flo, Mugs, Joanne, Juls, Jax, Agnes, CousCous and ZhiYing. They really made my day.

CousCous is really annoyingly sweet. Haha! Its so oxymoron but he really is like that. After EeeOoo on Thursday, we Whatsapped yesterday. I randomly told him that im craving for dessert in cake form. He jokingly said he would think about it and asked whether I would be coming today. And today when I arrived at cell, he took it out from the oven. Totally caught me off guard. He emphasized on the Hazelnut. HAHAHAHAH! But truthfully, it was really yummy :) Thumbs up for you, couscous!

Today we continued with the bible study. I was productive today. I understood better this time round. And it was time of sharing.

It was her sharing which triggered the memory and the heartache. Somehow, I felt comfortable sharing with this cell group. And they did not judge me. They were quite understanding and prayed for me :’) Awwwww! I havent shared this with Dimsum. I don’t think I ever will if I don’t feel comfortable sharing with them, I am sorry. And I found someone who actually went through the same thing I went through. She told me if I needed someone to talk to, she is more than happy to be the one. Thanks ♥

After cell, it was almost time to meet with the Life Worth Living Course people :O I sort of swallowed my dinner. Hahahaha! Because I only had 15 minutes to eat. The Char Kuay Teow that Mugs and I had was so so disappointing :( Ohemgee. I really miss the real Penang Char Kuay Teow!!! Grr. This one was so bad in a sense that I could really taste the dark soy sauce which they used to fry the hor fun with. Ewwww! I could do a better job. Really. Aiiih. What a waste of money. Ishhh.

But thank God for…

KUNG FU PANDA 2 in 3D

I watched it with the people I see on Tuesdays at the Life Worth Living Course – Andi, Andreas, Angelin, Glenn, Chaterine, Terry, Joshua, Tamana, Sarah, Cassie, John and his girlfriend. Teehee (:

I purposely downloaded Kungfu Panda and watched last night before I sleep so that I could understand the movie today. Haha! See… Im so dedicated :D Lol. Anyway, I really love the whole story of this panda who seems so fat and useless but he actually has good kungfu moves. With his 5 other friends, they protect the rest of the society in China. And the funny thing is, the panda calls a goose “Dad”. Wow! Interesting as.

I actually cried when he found out his origins in this 2nd movie :’( So touching. Hannah and I were sobbing away. And we were sitting in the middle of guys. They said they didn’t know how to react – whether to comfort us or give us a tissue. HAHAHAHAHA! Guys. Tsk tsk tsk.

Really enjoyed this outing. I hope we could have one more after we finish our course :) Wheee! Haha ♥

I really want to thank God for the wonderful people He placed in my life. Especially now. They bring so much laughter and fun into my life. With LWLCourse, I get to understand Him better and walk closely with all these brothers and sisters – I know I am not alone in this journey :) With EeeOoo, although they tend to tease me a lot, I know they mean no harm. They actually make my life so interesting and funny. We can laugh the whole day :D

I love Melbourne ♥

PS : I know what is happening back in Malaysia. I am praying for you guys. I don’t know how to express my disappointment towards the government – how they handled the rally in KL. Family and friends, be safe :) Don’t worry. He is in control of everything. At the end of the day, everyone will face their judgement day. He decides ♥ Amen.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#10

2011-07-09T03:53:00.001+10:00

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! :P

These is the work that I have promised weeks ago. The subtitles for the Life Worth Living Course video that I have been attending every Tuesday for the past 6 weeks :)

I underestimated this. I thought it would be easy and that’s why I volunteered to do the subtitles for the last 3 videos of the course. And guess what, this is only the first video I have done. I spent more than 10 hours doing this. It played on PowerDvd. I had to “play”, “pause”, “type” and the whole process repeats again and again until I finish the whole video.

It really tests my patience. The pastor speaking in the video has a strong British accent. I have to catch the words fast or else I have to repeat until I catch the word. And thank God for Google :D I get to Google names of places or people the pastor mentions. HAHAHA!

My neck is stiff now and my eyes are watery. Lol xD I am glad I completed this video though. Wheee! Celebration. I emailed the subtitles to the man in charge.

Nadia and I had a long and good conversation over the phone today. We went to our student portal and set our timetable for our subjects this coming semester :) And I managed to cramp all my lectures and tutorials from Tuesday until Thursday. Monday will be free for me! WHEEEEEEE :D Tuesdays and Wednesdays will be two long days in uni for me. Roar. Morning until evening. Hmmm… I guess its better to cramp them within these two days so that the rest of the days, I am able to study at home, go for EeeOoo meetings, go for worship practice, go for cell, and help out in church.

I realized that I cant slack at all in this semester. WHOAH! My subjects include Contract Law, Company Law, Microeconomics and Information to Business Systems. All theory! More notes. More reading. More memorizing.

I don’t think a casual job can fall into place. Eeeks! Sorry mummy and daddy, I guess afterall, I will still need you to support me in every way unlike Hannah who is earning her own allowance :( I feel so useless. Gah!

Ohhh ohh oohhh, I had curry (a big pot which lasted me for a few days now since Monday) and rice. It kept me warm because its so cold nowadays. Today, it was as low as 7 degrees but it really felt like 3 degrees :| Plus, I was home alone when Hannah went to work. I had this for dinner and my laptop with the subtitles to accompany me. Lol.

I cant wait for tomorrow!

I will be going to Mug’s cell again. With Hannah this time :P Will be seeing Yu Ying, Mugs, Juls, Cous Cous and the rest. Fun people to be with. After that, I will have dinner with the Life Worth Living Course people – Angelin, Chaterine (Mugs’ sisters) and the rest. We’re gonna watch KungFu Panda 2 at Hoyts, Melbourne Central. Wheeeeeee! Awesome pawsome ♥

PS : requirement list =]

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#9

2011-07-08T04:08:00.001+10:00

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl
And you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited.
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me," I begged
"I'll remember," you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?

I love the lyrics. So strong and meaningful and so TRUE. Its sorta telling the story of my life. The exact same words we exchanged with each other before I left for Melbourne. But no worries, im not on emo mode. I’m just reminiscing :)

I woke up and baked these cookies specially for EeeOoo. Haha! I promised Cous Cous (Marcus) that I will bake something for them today and we both agreed on Peanut Butter & Chocolate Chip Cookies last night COINCIDENTALLY. This is what I call unagi :P

We were supposed to discuss about Welcome Night but our sharing session took up most of the time. So Mugs decided that we will discuss next week. Our sharing session went on and on for 3 hours. HAHAHAHAAH! Because the sharing was mostly about our leader himself. He gave us an educational session on relationships today. I really learnt a lot from him today and I saw a different side of him :)

Note to self :

It is important to know what you want in your partner beforehand. Start off with writing a requirement list on paper. It helps. Get to know someone in depth before stepping into the relationship.

As he was sharing, I had thoughts in my head. Heaps and heaps of em in fact. I realized that my past relationship could have been better if I actually had a list to start with. Tick them off as I go. But I guess what is done, is done. Learn from experience ;) And because of what I have been through with the ex, it built me as a person. I am stronger now. I know what I want and what I need now ♥

I hereby say that there wont be Cookiemonster and KoiiKoii. But because of them, it made me realize what I really need and want in my future partner. Thanks to both of them, I can see that there is hope in other men of God :) ♥

PS: I don’t want boyfriend material. A friend, a husband and a life partner is what I will be waiting for. no rush. pray about it and open my heart and my eyes =]

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#8

2011-07-07T04:52:00.001+10:00

I need to blog to get some sad thoughts off my head :’) Going to sleep soon, I promise.

What are holidays if you’re not in the kitchen trying new recipes? Hahahaha! :D

We present to you – CHOCOLATE FONDANT!

We baked this at 1am in the morning. Both of us got home and had a sudden crave for dessert. Plus, Hannah just bought new ramekins for the house. FONDANT it is then :P

It is crunchy on the outside. Chocolate flows out as you get to the middle. Its like chocolate lava cake. YUMMMMMM! We had two each. Hahahaha! Definitely will gain weight this winter. No joke. Blehh :3

Today I thought there was Roundtable in church. Gahhhh! Once I reached church, I saw a different crowd – working people gathered there in the hall. Thank goodness I did not enter. Pheeeew! Instead, I watched Hannah and the members of the Dance Ministry prepare their dance for the coming Welcome Night :) I sat there with Ps Sandy’s family – Maria and the kids.

PS : I hate this bitter feeling.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#7– HAPPY 18TH BDAY

2011-07-07T04:11:00.001+10:00

The number 7. Wow! It rings heaps of bells in my head.

Today is 0707.

Happy 18th Birthday, Arthur!

If you thought that I have forgotten, Im sorry to disappoint you. I didn’t forget. Haha :D

Heaps of things I want to say but I don’t know where to start. But most of all, I hope you’re doing well and may you have an AWESOME birthday with that new special someone. May you be blessed in your studies and in everything else that you do in your life. Remember, God loves you. Many of us love you as well :)

18years old already! Finally. I remember the times you always tell me you wish you were older. At least old enough to be driving around those days. Haha! Now, no more driving illegally for you, mister. Time flies. Real fast. Now you’re of age. BIG BOY ALREADY! No longer there to nag you and to watch you. I am sure someone is doing just that right now as we speak but yea. Be well and healthy. Drive safe. Study smart and hard. You don’t want history to repeat itself yea? You know what I mean. I hereby thank you for all the good times we spent together. I am who I am now because of all that we have been through, sweet or bitter :) Take care.

PS : used to matter, still matters, and will always matter :)

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#6

2011-07-06T18:06:00.001+10:00

Went for the Life Worth Living Course last night. Knowing that I am playing the piano for the worship session, I wanted to go to church earlier to practice but when I arrived at the back door, it was LOCKED ;( Nobody was there yet. Usually there would be people. Gahhh! Plus, it was raining. I was standing in the rain for at least 2 minutes. Finally realized that it would be silly to get myself soaking wet in the rain, so I went and sit in the church office. Thank goodness Pastor Sandy was about to leave for home. He asked me to join SHREK in 277 instead of sitting alone. At least other ISMers would be there. So he opened the door for me. Met Andrew and Grace on the way :) We went up together.

SHREK is another ministry other than EeeOoo. Its is an event organizing ministry as well but has more of sports and recreational activities in it. Lol. Rainer, Nelson, Shiro, Vivian, Chrystal, Eleanor, Andrew, Grace and some others were members. Geeee! Bully me again. I guess its because im always the youngest when I hang out with them, so I am an easy target. Roar x) Left them to their meeting and rushed to Chapel Hall to practice the songs I was gonna play.

Overall, the worship session was really okay. A few mistakes here and there but wasn’t really that noticeable :D Haha! And we went on with dinner and the video. Honestly, I didn’t understand much or was rather confused and frustrated with the message – New Confidence.

It is not the amount of time we spend in church or how many ministries we’re active in which matters to God. What matters is whether we really live righteously to reflect His character. It is by His grace, mercy and faith that we were given His righteousness through Jesus dying on the cross. We definitely DO NOT earn it nor deserve it. This is how great His love is. So unconditional. We have to count our blessings all the time. It is also because of the righteousness He gave us, that we should be confident before Him during our judgement day. Put away our shame. Put away our ego. Put away our pride. And be stripped off everything else when we stand before Him during judgement day :) Amen.

I had a dream last night related to the confidence I had in my Lord, my friend and my savior. Maybe due to the fact that I am addicted to the HongKong series I am watching now – about World War II when Japan took over China, opium war. I dreamt that the Japanese caught me because they suspected that I had something to do with bribing their authorities so that I can save the Chinese people. They ill treated me and forced me to admit my actions. Finally, they decided to just kill me. Before they dragged me into the dungeons where I was supposed to die, I proudly claimed : "I am not afraid of death because I know I am a child of God and eventhough I am physically dead, I have eternal life. With Him, I fear nothing.” They laughed and teased. Threw me into the dungeon and filled my cell with poison gas. After a few hours, they came to check on me just to make sure I am dead. But I came out alive (it is like the story of Samuel and his friends being thrown into the fire but because of their faith and confidence in Him, they came out from the fire untouched.)

Okay. I tossed and turned the whole night. This dream left an impact on me. I will remember it for life.

PS : Roundtable in church tonight.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#5

2011-07-05T04:36:00.001+10:00

Have been quite a slack blogger recently. Ohh goodness! So many events and interesting tales. Haha :D I will try not to slack so much after this. Woooopies!

Thursday

(the pictures are only being uploaded now)

Seriously, who is Ferdinand? Haha! EeeOoo leader. The person who likes to bully and tease me all the time. Roar! Ohhh ohh ohh and the bubble milk tea from Chatime :) From Alex.

Friday

It’s the financial year end sales! Only yearn for winter clothes and boots :) Therefore, I shopped. And yes, I shopped alone. There’s nothing wrong with that. In fact, I get to decide what I want to buy and it was fast. I didn’t take as long as I would if I were to shop with people. Left the house and ate sushi in my favorite place – Tokui Sushi ♥ Earphones stuck to my ears, a pair of sunglasses, and my purse. Off I went to DFO, South Wharf. DOCKLANDS!!!!

Bought heaps. Came back with two full bags at hand. Haha! Overall, happy and satisfied ;D

In love with my ugg boots and leather boots. Its so warm and nice :D

As I left DFO, I stood on the bridge and watched the sun set :) The sound of water and the sight of the sun set itself was so calming. I stood there for a good 5-10 minutes or so. Just thinking about the past 6 months of my time here in Melbourne and what I am looking forward to as I continue living here.

Had dinner with Doug tho :) He promised to shop with me but he was aching due to over-gyming. Hahaha! So yeah, he made it up to me by bringing me out for dinner. We ate at Don Don’s behind Jaja’s place.

I love salmon! Its so fresh here that I just cant have enough of it. Haha :D Especially with wasabi. YUMMMMMM! Yearp, the sashimi was in a shape of a rose. So cute! Rice underneath with Japanese Soy Sauce. Good one, Doug :)

Saturday

I got my results! Credits and Distinctions ♥

Now, I cant wait to start 2nd semester. Contract law, Company law and Microeconomics HERE I COME!!!!

Woke up just in time for cell. Like I mentioned earlier, I will join Mugs’ cell for these few weeks and so I did. I really loved their cell. Awwwwww! They’re all young working adults. Only Marcus and I are students. Lol. But regardless, they are so friendly and welcoming. Most of them are from EeeOoo. Juls, Mugs, Marcus and Alex ♥ I immediately clicked with their cell. They gave me a very homey feeling. To be honest, Dimsum is too student oriented. More often than not, I don’t feel the homey feeling. This actually led me to consider changing cell. Eeeks! x(

Green tea and Taro cupcakes ;) YUMMMMMM! ♥

Ohhh and Alex bought us bubble milk tea again! He is awesome. I had bubble milk tea for the second time this week. Wheeee.

After cell, I rushed to meet up with Jaja, Hannah, Jen, Doug, Paul, Josh, Bevan, Chris, Grace and Andrew. We went to Crowns to watch Transformers 3 ♥

To be honest, I find the movie really really long winded. Many unnecessary scenes like the way the girl came out from the car. The movie was as long as 3 hours. Geeee! Plus, I sat in the middle and really really needed to go to the toilet but was afraid that I would miss some essential parts of the movie. I HELD IT IN :( Suffered for 3 hours. Lol. And I noticed the girl had different footwear in different situations. What?! She had time to change clothes when she was held hostage?? She had time to run in heels and later caught by the robot and she was no longer wearing heels but flats? What is this? So epic. Told them about my epic discovery after the movie. Jaja said only girls notice that. ROAR! Fine. But really. Maybe I was too annoyed that Megan Fox wasn’t in it. Pfft.

Sunday

Only had 3 hours of sleep. It may be due to anxiety that I am singing during worship. Or it could also be because of too much action from Transformers that my mind was filled with it. Hmmm… But regardless, I managed to wake up to shower and go to church at 8am for our last rehearsal before 9am service and 11.15am service. This time, I sang more of the melody than harmonies. It was tough as I had to sing soprano instead of alto which I am more comfortable singing. I know that as I sing higher notes, my voice gets sharper and unclear. Roar.

After lunch, I head back to Andrew’s and nap there before going back to church for 6pm service. Wow! It was really refreshing. That’s what I call a power nap! Haha :D I think it would be awesome if I could go over to Andrew’s or Jaja’s for a power nap on Sundays when I have to sing for 6pm service. Because my house is further from church compared to theirs :|

Ohhh and Kailyn is back! The superwoman of EeeOoo. Apparently, she told me she has a surprise for us EeeOooers this coming Thursday. Wonder what is her surprise. Bet it has something to do with eating. Wheeeee! Because we love to eat ♥

I prayed for wisdom and guidance on whether I should change cell or not. He answered me through Kailyn :) She understands how I feel when I say I feel so much closer to EeeOoo than Dimsum. But it is good to have best of both worlds. I have a bond with Dimsum as well as EeeOoo. I really don’t want to choose between them both ♥

PS : all the teasing, is making both of us awkward. Haha! His face turns red all the time. ADORABLE

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#4

2011-07-01T02:10:00.001+10:00

Had a skype date last night with my two lovelies! :D ♥

Shuu slept over at Mar’s. Awww! How I wish I was there with you two. We can pillow talk all night. Teeheeee (:

Yearrrp! As you can see, we smiled and laughed a lot. We talked less last night maybe because of the webcam. We were laughing at each other. Haha! But it is great to see them. MissyoubothHEAPPPSS! ♥

Not long after, MC joined them as well. Heee :P We shall have this sleepover when I am back yea? Wait another 4 months =]

Today, I made Chocolate Bread Pudding.

Brought it over to EeeOoo :) Glad they liked it even when it wasn’t that sweet (I ran out of sugar :P) Apparently, Mugs ate a lot. Awwww! That fella can really eat but still has a fit body. Amazed. But yeah, we started the promotion video shooting today. Haha! And it was so so funny. Starring MUGS! I couldn’t help but laugh everytime Juls took a video of him. Ohh gossh. We even made a new Facebook account for him just to include it in the video. For those who would want to know what the video is about, PLEASE COME TO CHURCH ON SUNDAYS(17/7 & 24/7) AND ISM WELCOME NIGHT ITSELF♥

ISM Welcome Night 2011 (2nd Sem)

Venue : Cross Culture Church of Christ, Swanston St.

Date : 30 July (First week of Uni 2nd Semester)

Time : 6pm – 8.30pm

I had to leave EeeOoo earlier because I had worship practice. I didn’t eat dinner but my stomach was bloated. To be honest, I think I strained my voice today upon reaching the higher notes. Gahh! Epic. Warm Honey Lemon Tea, here I come ;)

This week, I am privileged to be singing together with a team of awesome musicians and singers. My worship leader – Jack, is experienced and my another vocal partner – Sharon, is a GREAT singer. It is great serving with these people. Ohhh ohhh ohhh, we don’t have a guitarist this week. ROAR! The songs were slightly laggy. So our bassist – Beni, had to play acoustic guitar instead. We practiced until 10pm tonight which is really considered late. I just pray that we will do well this Sunday as we’re leading the congregation into worship. All for the glory of Your kingdom, Father ♥

On a positive note, I cant wait to watch Transformers with Jaja, Alicia, Hannah, Andrew, Grace, Josh and hopefully Douglas as well. Teehee! Saturday :D I have my Saturday planned already. I am going to join Mugs, Alex and Marcus in their cell group as my cell group wont be happening this week and weeks to come. Many of them are on holidays. So yeahhh. I am gonna crash their cell! Waahahahah ♥

Ohhh, and Bev just joined EeeOoo today. It was not really as awkward as I pictured it in my mind. Yes, I know we have our differences and guess what. No matter how I try to avoid seeing him, there you go! He joined the same ministry. I think it is all God’s plan. He is testing my patience and He has His plans to turn the whole situation around. Okay. I am accepting this plan of His. I know eventually I will grow out of that grudge I have for Bev. I shall persevere and continue praying. And, I will text Bev tomorrow and ask if he wants to watch Transformers together with the rest of us. It is polite to ask. Rach is not around, I guess he wont have much plans so… yeah, I will text him. Putting aside the grudge :) It’s the first step to being happy I guess.

For He first loved me, I should love others as well.

PS : exhausted.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Random Rants#142

2011-06-29T04:23:00.001+10:00

With this, it ended my misery for the night. Marina and Shuying always knows what to say when I come to them with my problems. And no, it may not be what I want to hear but at least it is comforting and consoling at the same time. Best Friends. What would I do without them? IMISSYOUBOTHSOMUCH! I don’t want virtual hugs. I want REAL hugs :( ♥

To my parents who played their part, im sorry if I was too resistant to what you have to say tonight. I shall ponder upon them as well, don’t you worry. Still love you both as always ♥

PS : if being angry is not a good option, why not try to be nicer for a change?

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#4

2011-06-28T04:32:00.001+10:00

On a happier note :)

Thursday, I had meeting and dinner with EeeOoo. We are starting to plan for ISM Welcome Night Sem 2 which would be at the end of July. I am in charge of promotion. Gah! Its tough. Haha! But I reckon nothing in life is easy anyway, so why not? Plus, I am having my holidays. I should be able to handle it.

In this picture, I was just a normal attendee of Welcome Night. Now, I get to be involved in the event organizing team :D Wheee!

I love to serve and serve to love ♥

Friday, Alicia slept over after a Harry Potter marathon with me. Heeeee :P AWESOME! But we started with Deathly Hallows Part 1 first because I havent watched that yet. Lol. It was so brain-frying, its not funny. I had to watch Gulliver’s Travels and Big Momma House 2 for a good laugh and later continue watching Half Blood Prince. ROAR xD Psst, Alicia fell asleep btw. Haha!

Since we’re having holidays, I will have Alicia to come over more often. We can watch more movies together :) ♥

Saturday, I baked Tim’s cake. We celebrated his advanced birthday during ISM Movie Night. Teeehee (: I baked a Vanilla Sponge Cake with Jam. Sorry, I didn’t take the picture of the cake because I was busy trying to make it nice and presentable that I didn’t bother to take a picture. Hahahahahaha! Lol. And yes, we watched Despicable Me and Letters to Iwo Jima in church with the rest of the ISM-ers ♥ It was quite fun! We should have more nights like that.

*group pictures are with my cell leader* =]

Sunday, after church, had lunch with Mugs and his cell group. Played basketball with them that evening as well. Alex was supposed to help me with the subs but because we played basketball, ate dinner and dessert together, he was too tired. Hahahaha :D Hanging out with them the whole day actually got my mind of heaps of unhappy thoughts (: Thanks guys! ♥

Ohhh ohhh oohhh, I am playing the piano for the worship session in Life Worth Living Course tomorrow night. Teeehee! Cant wait. Nervous and psyched at the same time. ALSO, I am singing this Sunday.

Toldcha, my holidays will be quite packed ♥

Goodnight x

PS : sleepy. will continue doing the subs tomorrow.

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Random rants#141

2011-06-28T03:45:00.001+10:00

Have not really blogged since last Tuesday. Oh well :) Became lazy to turn on my laptop. Haha! Have been online with my phone instead. Lol. But anyway, am back now. I reckon I should not bottle up my thoughts because I will explode the way I did on Saturday. Eeks x(

Pondered upon my explosion last Saturday night.

I was on Bloggeroid (for Android) for at least an hour to write my post. Finally, I only managed to come out with a short post because I didn’t know how to deliver or express my mixed feelings and thoughts properly in words. Gahh! So epic, I know. Slept on it and went to church feeling renewed the next morning.

And no, I am not running back to my past. Don’t worry :|

I have to agree that the future is scary. But it is a risk I am willing to take now. After much thought about it, I should not hinder myself from anyone or anything in that matter, I am who I am. Like it or not, I am not going to change the way I am to suit anyone. Neither am I expecting anyone to change to suit me. Just because someone thinks that I am not mature as they are, doesn’t mean I have to force myself to grow another 10yrs of maturity within myself just to suit them. Its either you like me the way I am or you dont. That’s it. I am not about to force myself to be someone I am not.

I don’t want to feel the need to avoid or not to talk to you. I don’t want to feel like I have to be different when I am around you. I just want be myself. I realized I have been trying hard to be different all these while. Overly cautious. Having to think about what people might think of me ALL THE TIME, is so tiring. It is energy-draining. It is mind-blasting.

Tis’ the season to be jolly.

I want to spend my winter break with a joyful heart, carefree soul and a relaxed mind. NOOOOOO! I do not want to be melancholic during the holidays. I know I will be okay :) Occasionally, I know there would be unpredictable and unavoidable rants from yours truly, but fingers crossed and God willing, I will be okay. Teeehee! (:

PS : brothers and sisters. easy. simple :)

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Gaps.

2011-06-26T02:52:00.001+10:00

They say GIVING UP is letting go someone who is rightfully yours. Whereas LETTING GO is giving up someone who wasn't yours to begin with.

Age gap. Generation gap.

It is tough to bridge the gap, I know. Especially the level of maturity.

Ijustfeeldownatthemoment.

Kari Jobe

2011-06-22T02:51:00.001+10:00

I am so moved by this song ♥

I know that You are for me. I know that You will never forsake me in my weaknesses. I know that You have come down even if to ride upon my heart to remind me of who You are.

PS : wisest decision is to take it slow. discover more. :)

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#3

2011-06-22T01:49:00.001+10:00

I have to say Hannah’s porridge for lunch was AWESOME. I always hesitate to eat the food she cooks because most of the time, they are tasteless. When I woke up just in time for lunch today (:P), I opened the rice cooker and saw porridge inside. It was slightly brownish with mixed vegetables and pork. I only took a spoon full to taste. Before putting it into my mouth, I told myself : theres no way im gonna eat that even if I starve. And right after I put it into my mouth, I was shocked. Lol. I am mean, I know. Well, its because she doesn’t add salt into anything she cooks. Cant blame me for being judgemental. Lol xD Anyway, what I am trying to say is that, I complimented her when she came back from school. I think she was shy because I don’t usually compliment her when it comes to food. Haha! Ahhhh, improvement from my side :) ♥

And I continued downloading Dollhouse Season 2 as I havent been watching dollhouse ever since I had SPM which was 2 years ago. Lol. So yearp, catching up :)

Rushed to cook dinner because I knew I was gonna be late for the Life Worth Living Course tonight. And true enough, I was late. Eeeeks! I felt so bad. Because I was supposed to lead worship today. They started the first song without me. I kept apologizing and thank goodness these people are quite forgiving. *phewwww Ohhhgeee Hazel, you seriously have to work on your punctuality. Always late. Gaahhhhh :( Another area to put in effort to change.

Today, Nicky Gumbel was talking about NEW RESPONSIBILITIES in the video :) Today’s message really hit me and it hit me GOOD.

It is so easy for us to shift blame to others so that they would be held responsible instead of us. Being humans, it is almost natural that we do that all the time even when we are the ones who are supposed to be responsible. Also, God has given us the freedom. The freedom to love Him, love others and the freedom to not fear death. But with freedom comes responsibility. We have to be held accountable for that freedom He has mercifully given us through His son who died for us. We complain all the time when things don’t turn out as well or go as planned but have we ever thought about putting our mouth into better use? For example, instead of complaining, we could spread the Good News because the world needs to know about Christ. Lastly, serving Him and serving others is a blessing. We can find true joy in serving. It is not all about the time we have to sacrifice in order to serve, but it is the passion and the desire to do more for the glory of His kingdom. Therefore brothers and sisters, I hereby urge all of you to embrace new responsibilities, leave your old ways and live your lives according to what He has intended your lives to be :) God bless xx ♥

I love serving. Music ministry and EeeOoo. I enjoy it very very much. I used to serve so much back home that I became so busy and started complaining about not having enough time for myself bla bla bla. But I hope to change. Serve but don’t complain. Do it with all my strength and my might. Do the best I could in everything that I do because the bible says : In everything that you do, glorify Him :)

Ohhh ohhh ohhh, I have volunteered to do the video translations for weeks to come. Teeehee (: So that I can serve as well as filling my time while waiting for people to call me and hire me. Lol ♥

There was a jamming session in church while we were having the Life Worth Living Course. So after I finish my bible study and group discussion, I went and join them :) ISM Activ8 ♥ Yearp! So I stayed longer until we locked up the church together and head home. Had a good chat with Aiwee and Aaron. So kind of them to wait for my tram to come. Aaron is going back to Singapore this week. So, I wont be seeing him for quite some time until he comes back. Awwww! We will miss you, Aaron. Haha! Will miss your whackiness.

Speaking of which, many people are going back home. Gah! The cell will shrink in size when they are not around. Eeeee x) Jaja is going back for a few weeks as well when uni starts. At least he would still be around when other people arent :)

PS: I will be having my retreat when you’re not around. Epic :(

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Winter Break#2

2011-06-21T03:25:00.001+10:00

Seriously, no joke :P

Love this part :

Fall in love many times, always with the same person but deeper and deeper each time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew.

Teehee =] CM ♥

I spent the afternoon eating pancakes and watching Xmen 3 which ended my Xmen marathon. Gahhh! Later in the evening, I went to the gym with Jaja.

With teh tarik ♥ This lasted me until dinner.

Ohh and what happened before gym was epic. Obviously there was miscommunication between the both of us. He thought I was inside already, but honestly how could I? He has the keys, I don’t. Gahh! So he went in without me. I was abit late due to the GAY tram schedules in the evenings x) So when he text me, I just arrived at the front door of the apartment with no way to go in without the key. Called him but he didn’t answer. Ohhemgee, I was like a lost puppy standing outside the apartment waiting for someone to finally open the door and I just followed them in. Upon coming out from the lift, there I was, calling him again. No answer. Called Alicia but she wasn’t at home or else I had to bother her to come all the way down to the 7th floor to open the gym door for me. Eeeeks. Finally, a girl was heading towards the gym as well. THANK GOD! I just followed her in all the way. End of epicness. Lol. Cold sweat all over. I was seriously thinking if he doesn’t pick up any any of my phone calls, I think I will just leave :(

Inside, we both explained. Lol. It was abit weird when he told me he thought I was inside already because he thought he was late. But seriously, I couldn’t have. I always waited for him before this because he had the keys. Why would I change all of a sudden? x) Silly Jaja.

When I went on the Elliptical bike, I felt nauseous after a while because I kept drinking water while going at it after rowing 10km. My tummy was filled with water. I felt like throwing up. Immediately got off that bike and hold onto the wall. My hearing was blur as well. My head was spinning. Sat down and lean against the wall. Wow! That was scary. My head was screaming his name but I didn’t actually scream out his name. Wouldn’t wanna shock everyone. Haha! Just sat there and took my time to recover. When I stood up, he was there already. Maybe wondering what happened to me. I just smiled. EPIC!

Lesson learnt : Do not keep drinking water while working out.

Since im so free, I think I can go to the gym 2-3 times a week. Haha! :D

We had dinner back at Jaja’s. Got to play his new bass as well. I played Jesus You are Worthy :) It was funny when he gave a loud WOW! when he checked his phone. I immediately asked, “how many missed calls?” He laughingly replied 4. Funny :DD

I love today I have to say.

PS : youareawesome ♥

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx,

hazelll

Moments.

2011-06-20T03:15:00.001+10:00

Saturday was supposed to be cell group day. I didn’t end up going because I went to kuche’s for a sleepover. It was a rather last minute decision. But yeah, I miss cell :(

On a happy note, I enjoyed my sleepover at her place. It was just us three. Uncle Dan, Kuche and me ♥ We had simple dinner – Yong Tau Fu in soup with Mee Hoon. It was YUMMMMMMMMMMMMM! I helped prepare dinner. Awwww! What a good niece *pats self* xD

Had heart to heart talk with her. She is the most blunt person I have ever known. She doesn’t tell me what I want to hear, instead, she gives me the exact opposite of what seems sweet to my ears. I’ve got to admit that its for my own good. Hannah, Kuche, Denise, Marina and Shuying never fail to give “it” to me out of love. Yes, it is hard to digest at first due to the resistance to criticism. But, I have realized over the years that it’s a way for me to reflect upon myself, take a step back and start changing. Thank Him for people like these in my life ♥

We even had an AWESOME time playing Scrabble Trickster :) It is definitely a different yet refreshing board game. First two people who came to my mind was Jaja and Tim. Knowing them, they spend most of their time on their HTC and iPhone playing Words with Friends, they would definitely enjoy this NEW invention. Haha! Will borrow it from Kuche one day and bring it to cell.

Sometimes being away from home isnt that bad. It gives me a chance to reflect on what has happened in the house recently and a clear mind on how I can change and improve so that those events don’t have to occur again :) This is what I feel. Lol.

MY NEW THEME – DANBO ♥

Waking up this morning, I was abit reluctant. Thinking that I was supposed to accompany Kuche for the Run for Hope 4.2km like the other time when I joined Run for Kids, gahhh, I was so lazy. Haha! But apparently Kuche didn’t wake up as well. Heeeee :P We both woke up just in time to clean up, pack my stuff and leave for church. Ku che was delighted to join me for service to see Hannah sing today. She even brought her camera. Hahahaha! I am a proud sister today. Seeing my sister on the stage, being so enthusiastic yet praising Him and Him alone encourages me so so much. Hannah smiles a lot whenever she was on the stage. I definitely have to smile more after this. Before this, I reckon its because I was nervous and all, I didn’t smile much. I guess I put on a TIGER face? :D Roar. Definitely have to smile more

Love to see the passion in my sister to serve. I hugged her after service, telling her how proud I am of her. I guess I don’t say that often that’s why when I told her today, she stared at me with disbelief. It was like I never praised her before. Awwww :( I noticed I never give her any credit for anything she does regardless of how small or how big, I just don’t. Gahh! I suck as a sister. But I will change because I want to remain as close to my sister as possible. She is my best friend. My sister ♥ Love her heaps and will show more this time around.

If there was one HongKong show I remember most, it would be the show about sisterhood. I watched it when I was really young with my mom. Those were the days when I always argued and beat up my sister. That show made my mom and I cry when there was a dialogue saying : “In this life, you are siblings. Make the best out of it. Appreciate. Because you will never know whether you would still be siblings in the next life.”

Hannah, kajie loves you ♥ Mwuahh x

Jaja’s unagi :P

My Sashimi Bento ♥

We had lunch with cell after service. We went to Kimurakun in China town. My sashimi was really awesome. I ate it with heaps of wasabi. YUMMMMMMMMM! And the whole lunch was just $10. Cooliess ♥ Next time, im gonna try Jaja’s unagi bento. Seems yummy to me.

We had yogurt after lunch. Haha!

Fathers’ Day was suddenly brought up during yogurt time. So all of us called home to wish our fathers. Haha! I definitely called daddy to wish him. He was quite surprised as well. Teeehee (: Miss his voice already ♥

Sometimes, there are pictures of you which I would stare and stare for hours. Maybe im just so free now that I have nothing to do but to stare at you. LOL. Weird me :|

PS : onthekeyboard,JandHaresidebyside :)

hopes of a better tomorrow

Heaps of LOVE xx

hazelll