Monday has gone and pass. Ohhemgeee! What did I do? Seriously, I didn’t do much. Wasn’t a productive day whatsoever. I slept for a whopping 14hours. So much of a beauty sleep eh? I guess its because on Saturday night, I didn’t sleep well. I slept less than 3 hours. Its not because I didn’t wanna sleep. But I kept waking up in the middle of the night and found it hard to go back to sleep again. Grrrr =x Don’t know whats up. I was probably anxious about singing on Sunday morning perhaps? Not sure why though. I mean, this aint my first time singing also.
Sunday was really draining! I overlooked the roster and didn’t see the part where we’re rostered to sing/play for 6pm service as well. LOL! And guess what, I was the only one in the entire team who didn’t know *slaps self* Guess it was the lack of sleep the night before? Geee! I really don’t know.
Why do I feel my world is upside down when im being cut off from you? I’m like super disorganized, super blur and like super lost… Why did I allow you to be this significant in my life? Grr! I would really love to not care about you. But I cant help it D: Whenever I see you, I feel the urge to cry. I feel super upset inside. I guess its because I feel its as if you left w/out me knowing. You totally left me hanging. The connection between you and I… was so short yet you left such a big impact on me. I reckon all I wanna ask of you is to remember me.
You mean more to me than you’ll ever know :’)
Hannah keeps pushing me and asking me to just tell you how I feel about you. But I guess im still very much the traditional type of girl where I believe in the guy chasing the girl instead of the girl doing the chasing. Yes, I admire from afar. It takes a lot of effort and a long time but its like the only way I know. Remember you asked me this question before. “You’re the traditional type huh?” YES!!! And you’re the traditional kinda guy too, remember? You said you would be sorta taken aback if a girl comes for you. With that said, rest assured, I will leave these words unsaid :) Don’t you worry.
So near yet so far…
Dreams.
I have weird dreams recently and it always wakes me up in the middle of the night, wondering… WHAT WAS THAT? and I would be bothered by it. Hence, I’ll find it difficult to get back to sleep again. I really really have to pray hard. Ask Him to reveal what those dreams mean and ask Him for proper rest.
Matthew 11:28 - "Come to me, all who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest"
Ohhh on a random note, my grandparents are in the plane now as we speak, on the way HERE! Wheee :D Cant wait to spend time w them. But at the same time, I have to reschedule my studying time as well. Hmmmm :| No complaints ♥
PS : 若要把你放下，我需要勇气 :(
I believe in a better tomorrow
Heaps of LOVE x,
hazelll
