It’s a sunny day out now in the arvo! Like finally. Geeee. It didn’t feel like it was spring these 2 weeks coz it has been raining and it was quite chilly. Hmmm :| Ohh wells.
Still, I reckon im feeling slightly under the weather. Due to many factors actually. One of being the fact that we havent been chatting heaps, but its alright now that we still have that slight communication. Another fact would be because I have been getting warnings/advises from brothers/sisters in Christ. I just turned on Facebook and there’s this brother who left me a message in my inbox saying how I should stop posting/sharing sexual stuff on my wall?! First of all, I didn’t have any intention of attracting unnecessary attention from the opposite sex or what not. The most recent one I posted was a newspaper article about this high school student in Taiwan who was sexually assaulted by his girlfriend’s father. I found it epic, that’s all. Thought of sharing. No bad intentions at all. Geeee! Deep inside, I know that its always good to have people being accountable for my growth and what not. But sometimes I feel it’s a bit too much. Somehow, after reading that inbox message, I had this really heavy feeling. Its like I could understand how non-believers feel when we Christians come out too strong on this and that. Yes, we’re supposed to be set apart. But I know deep inside, I didn’t have that intention to draw attention to myself =x
I mean, he even asked me to take those posts out and stop posting stuff like that again. I felt very restricted. Felt very controlled. Like someone is here to take over the wheel of my life when the person who is supposed to take the wheel is my Lord, my God. I feel troubled as of now.
Anyway, I just replied that brother saying, “Yeah, if it bothers you so much, I’ll take those post out”
I know it’d sound as if im pissed by replying it like that, but I couldn’t hide it. Hmmmm… Im gonna pray for peace and joy then. Or else, I know my whole arvo or rather, my whole day would be ruined and it wouldn’t be a productive day.
I wish I could be carefree and not dwell on what I reckon people would think of me or is thinking of me…
PS : 就是想着你♥
I believe in a better tomorrow
Heaps of LOVE x,
hazelll
